hip dips...

need to cherish the amount of free time I have tho…. I remember not being able to rly draw when I was dating someone, or even do the hobbies I liked outside of gaming

me: damn everyone’s out so often— oh wait that’s a date

bonus points bc my friends date each other or are siblings so they hang out a lot in general LOL

thinking about the stupid mullet he had as a teen

and bc I haven’t been posting a lot I feel disconnected from nufu fandom more….. I talk to ppl but I don’t feel like a participant rly??? I feel like I’ve kinda isolated myself and everyone is doing stuff together over there. im just trying to open csp everyday 💀

I think wanting to do more serious art was the catalyst for everything. the irony. can’t even make better art without resorting to bed rotting 😩

i wanted to make my own zine but i lost motivation the beginning of the year… and it only got worse lmao but maybe it’s a good thing bc it’s so niche and the art itself isn’t good enough to buy just for the art so?????

which isn’t so bad since i can gift to friends and can afford production costs but…. thinking about applying to zines i just don’t think it’s even worthy of that lmao. but it’s my fault for just not drawing enough so 😭 im stuck in my own prison

with 5 it’s just…. i just don’t see my art as stuff ppl would actually want to buy. rn im trying to sell it but for fun since tag along w my friend but overall i dont think anything i make is worth buying lol

1. i want to do more than sketches but i lose motivation so fast once i take a drawing seriously
2. not being able to do more makes me sad
3. not being able to do more means I can’t do projects that I want to do
4. feel insecure about my art
5. feel insecure about its marketability specifically