fucked up thought of this evening:
i wanna make the rich fight each other till death and when there's only one of them left i'll kill them myself. giving them hope and taking it away at the final moments would make me feel better :]

also. sometimes i feel like i don't get enough love and affection and it makes me CRANKY AS HELL even tho I KNOW it's not anyone's duty or job to love me. i guess i'm too needy?? it does make sense tho, considering my childhood and how i didn't get enough of anything really.

i often feel like my irls hate me and even tho i know it's not true i still find myself making myself small around them. idk sometimes it feels like they don't care about me nearly as much as i care about them. sucks ass.