Thank you, it's nice of you to take the time to say something supportive, even if its not much, i appreciate it ;-;

I dont think i would make a good mother, i dont mourn the children I cant have but anything i can pass on for a better future can only be passed on to people willing to listen to someone like me which is very few, like i said, it all feels very lonely, not many friends, no family, hostile strangers

My parents never had a plan with me, my sisters, they just kind of had us, dragged us around, any opportunity we could've gotten often sabotaged by their selfish and short sighted decisions

Sadly I realized that in my transition, I'm not likely to ever end up with children, biological or adopted, so any choice i make is for me and me alone, i realized that most people who do have kids never actually take these things into consideration and do things as if they can't hurt others

its usually over things so harmless that hateful people need to literally make up stories framed around their binary views of how people/human bodies work, so focused on not letting other people live how they want even if it has no harmful or direct effect on instead of being happy themselves

It's incredibly cruel that so many people feel the need to abuse others into conforming into what they think they should be, and the thing is that it varies from country to country, social context, time period, what's seen as masculine or feminine here and now may not be later or somewhere else

Essentialist arguments about how its natural that men HAVE to be certain ways and women HAVE to be these other ways (often seen as inferior socially speaking) meanwhile there's thousands of animals in the wild that shatter this narrative, as if we're born with color coded clothes and styles

Seen as mentally ill and delusional for not accepting a narrative of how people SHOULD express themselves based on physical characteristics rather than being the person you are

Devalued from other women because the idea that transfeminine people have less social value because they cant have children as if most "normal" people dont just have kids to fuck them up and treat them like shit

Told that youre a man but not being seen as one and disrespected, belittle, infantalized just as much as any other woman subject to as harsh levels of misogyny and violence by people who feel like they have the right to tell you what your body should or shouldn't be