You start to see that growth isn't about knowing more, it's about being brave enough to question what you were sure of.
And the more awake you become, the lonelier clarity feels, until you learn to stop expecting everyone to meet you there.

If you feel torn between the heaviness and the beauty, you're not unstable.
You're human in the most honest way possible.

And somehow, with all that happening inside you, life still expects you to keep moving, run errands, answer texts, remember passwords, act functional while you're holding emotions that cancel each other out.
Here is the quiet truth behind it.

What no one prepares you for is the contradiction of it all. Feeling completely overwhelmed by life while still noticing the way light falls on a wall. Feeling broken by things you never talk about but showing up like nothing's wrong. Losing pieces of yourself and finding new ones on the same day.

One part of you is grieving something you can't even name, and another part is moved by the smallest, softest things for no reason at all.

yes, it just..does

wishing you relief and replenishment from the anemia

Maybe it's not nostalgia. Maybe something in us collectively shifted, and now we're all just trying to find our footing in a version of life that never went back to normal. (3)

Time doesn't flow the same way anymore.
Days blur, months vanish, and people seem tired in ways they don't talk about. The air feels different, thinner somehow, more digital, less human. (2)