and i also know for sure that if i will be alone for the day i won't be productive in any significant way (at least in studying)

so. coming full circle around and still not knowing what to do to be more productive send help

>> in a 'there's constantly someone else around' way. and the thing is i love those people and love the fact that they're around me. most of the time at least lol

so i start procrastinating anyway even if it leads to more anxiety bc how can I procrastinate especially around other people!!

like yeah the presence of another person nearby is welcome in a sense that it at least partially keeps me from procrastinating but when it's so constant it starts being suffocating and its distracting. not even in a 'a lot of things happen around you' way but >>

and if we're counting mental health here I feel like the amount of 'fully healthy' ppl will be near nonexistent

like even if we aren't counting mental health. do ppl who don't have some sort of chronic or flaring up from time to time problem or something that need to be checked sometimes just to make sure that there's no problem and it won't appear soon