maybe i should reread myself before posting sometimes but also english isn't my first language so who cares

But also no one arounds him understand the intricacy of constantly walking on a wire and what falling down of it would mean
What he's experience isn't just a small fall, it's a crash, his god droped from an airplane and he miraculously survived

constantly considering every single step u take, and how it might upset GOD, The self shame u put yourself through. Like yeah, he has an ego, who wouldn't, his godess chose him.

having everything you believes in come down to you and go "hey i chose you specificaly" and ask things directly from you? The weight of those responsabilities from a young age, into adulthood, the expectation people around you instantanly getting higher, the jalousy, the judgment of ur every actions