I was wondering what happened to you. I remember you saying you were going to to stop posting on one, but when I saw that you're main one was gone I started to worry about you. If it wasn't for YouTube I wouldn't have found you here.

I had another outlet, but I get so into it that I forget to be part of the real world. I'm not numbing myself with anything. I'm just doing something I learned from watching Mister Rogers Neighborhood growing up. It just sucks that I only have one hour a week to talk about the mental strain of all

That's just a sample of what's going on with me right now. That's not even counting how other things factor in. Outside of therapy, and medication, the only thing that's helped has been talking to one of my best friends about the misadventures we used to get into.

That's not counting the people that try to bury their feelings. Add in someone close suffering from health issues that are similar to other people you've already lost. You already know that feeling of helplessness, but now it's amplified because this time you know there's no hope.

To complicate things even more, let's add in all the feelings that people go through without all of that. It's hard enough for people who don't have any of those issues.

Ten thousand times goodbye - The Electric Boys

Nothing without you - Dilanger