Hope a break from the game can help lift you up brother
Personally I left the game earlier this year and has been really good for me, doing other stuff and going through the backlog has given me a better perspective of what I enjoy and where to invest my energy
Hope it helps you to find more peace

I believe that the ABK deal was the thing that set things in motion, back in 2018 with the first studios I had the impression that Xbox will grab the RPG throne, and was a mid/long term bet, but with ABK basically it turned to immediate profit, destroying that bet that was showing the actual results