Changes and allows us to have some sort of peace with the people who either don't know enough or don't wanna let go or whatever and just be bygones. Idk. It sucks being a pained bystander, because any actual action will just exasperate it like scratching open a scab.

I can't control or stop. So I have to try my best to ignore it. Try my best to get my partner to ignore it. Because no matter how many times I paul revere about these people everyone will come flocking back to them anyway. So I have to eventually just walk away from it all unless something else

The hardest part is definitely seeing them playing things I like, and even more than that, reconnecting with people I don't. People who hurt me connecting with people who hurt my friends. Acting like they're all victims in a hugbox probably and bonding on it. It's despicable but also something

It feels incredibly difficult. But I know that latching onto this pain will make it hurt more. Idk... I hope I can find a solution to this conundrum eventually. All I want is uncluttered happiness for me and my friends and partners around me.

It's like on one hand you wanna be Knut and burn everything but in the other realize you must be Thors, you must be better in order to BE BETTER. Vinland saga is peak btw