Insecure people never change because they are hilariously successful in deceiving themselves when they feel cornered.

The real change begins when you can't fight off the immensely painful condition you find yourself in with no naivete at your disposal.

Then you are doomed to reinvent yourself.

The basic fact that we cannot suffer constantly, but even suffering ebbs and flows, creates an opportunity/space for the illegitimacy of the retribution of that suffering. A mind that cannot operate stochastically seems to be doomed to invalidate any claim it comes up with, for everything changes.

Week #1 - Simplicity and Complexity

\ If you do anything in social sciences and humanities, you can't possibly miss the prevailing atmosphere of COMPLEXITY. Everything is immensely complex. No (amount of) word(s) that you can utter would do justice to this tremendous complexity. JUST TOO COMPLEX.

I chose this week's topics as "simplicity" and "complexity." So for the rest of the week, I plan to come back to this topic and add some thoughts.

I have this plan to specify one topic every Monday and for the rest of the week have that topic in the back of my mind to ponder. Maybe in this way, I can have slightly deeper ideas about certain things.

There is a sort of light ressentiment that I have towards those who found their place in the world, that slightly complacent confidence of being content with what they have, their finitude, because although I envy that feeling of gratitude and respite, I can't fully respect them. Not good..

One of the most exciting ideas that I have encountered during my PhD was Hans Blumenberg's idea of the "ruthlessness of the world."

The fact that the world is inconsiderate about my intentions, wishes, and desires has been so obvious yet disturbing.