Beanie
@meanbeanie.bsky.social
Internet dipshit, full time complainer, not to be taken seriously. If I'm on here I'm probably procrastinating.
This place will be an ungodly disorganized mashup of writing and Wheel of Time
This place will be an ungodly disorganized mashup of writing and Wheel of Time
in the last ~18 hours ive been:
told to cut contact with my crit partner
told i'm writing too many povs and i should only have one
told to quit writing
it's apparent to me that NOBODY thinks i should be writing. so fuck it. you win. i quit. are you all happy now?
told to cut contact with my crit partner
told i'm writing too many povs and i should only have one
told to quit writing
it's apparent to me that NOBODY thinks i should be writing. so fuck it. you win. i quit. are you all happy now?
November 20, 2025 at 5:51 PM
in the last ~18 hours ive been:
told to cut contact with my crit partner
told i'm writing too many povs and i should only have one
told to quit writing
it's apparent to me that NOBODY thinks i should be writing. so fuck it. you win. i quit. are you all happy now?
told to cut contact with my crit partner
told i'm writing too many povs and i should only have one
told to quit writing
it's apparent to me that NOBODY thinks i should be writing. so fuck it. you win. i quit. are you all happy now?
okay. i've been convinced to quit writing
quitting feels like i'm giving up part of me, but everyone keeps telling me basically i'm just in love with the idea of writing and won't ever actually do it
fine. you want me to quit, i'll quit. nobody's entitled to write. nobody wants me to. so fine.
quitting feels like i'm giving up part of me, but everyone keeps telling me basically i'm just in love with the idea of writing and won't ever actually do it
fine. you want me to quit, i'll quit. nobody's entitled to write. nobody wants me to. so fine.
November 20, 2025 at 5:49 PM
okay. i've been convinced to quit writing
quitting feels like i'm giving up part of me, but everyone keeps telling me basically i'm just in love with the idea of writing and won't ever actually do it
fine. you want me to quit, i'll quit. nobody's entitled to write. nobody wants me to. so fine.
quitting feels like i'm giving up part of me, but everyone keeps telling me basically i'm just in love with the idea of writing and won't ever actually do it
fine. you want me to quit, i'll quit. nobody's entitled to write. nobody wants me to. so fine.
also because i dont want to hear any "just write! i'm sure it's not so bad"
this is what i wrote on that sprint, and you can see the exact moment i realized it wasn't worth writing & stopped mid sentence
this? this is an embarrassment. if your writing looks like this, just quit
this is what i wrote on that sprint, and you can see the exact moment i realized it wasn't worth writing & stopped mid sentence
this? this is an embarrassment. if your writing looks like this, just quit
November 20, 2025 at 4:49 PM
also because i dont want to hear any "just write! i'm sure it's not so bad"
this is what i wrote on that sprint, and you can see the exact moment i realized it wasn't worth writing & stopped mid sentence
this? this is an embarrassment. if your writing looks like this, just quit
this is what i wrote on that sprint, and you can see the exact moment i realized it wasn't worth writing & stopped mid sentence
this? this is an embarrassment. if your writing looks like this, just quit
i wish people would stop saying i'm just demanding perfection from my first draft
i'm not. i'm demanding... a first draft. i have standards, as well i SHOULD. your first draft should be good. its shit compared to the final draft, but not shit in its own right
mines shit. im allowed to take issue
i'm not. i'm demanding... a first draft. i have standards, as well i SHOULD. your first draft should be good. its shit compared to the final draft, but not shit in its own right
mines shit. im allowed to take issue
November 20, 2025 at 4:46 PM
i wish people would stop saying i'm just demanding perfection from my first draft
i'm not. i'm demanding... a first draft. i have standards, as well i SHOULD. your first draft should be good. its shit compared to the final draft, but not shit in its own right
mines shit. im allowed to take issue
i'm not. i'm demanding... a first draft. i have standards, as well i SHOULD. your first draft should be good. its shit compared to the final draft, but not shit in its own right
mines shit. im allowed to take issue
ok so writing sprints are useless for me now too apparently
i tried for like 5 minutes but i wrote some absolute dogshit prose
that was my last ditch effort hail mary. fuck it, universe. you win. i should never have tried writing for the first place, i'm sorry i ever thought i could
i tried for like 5 minutes but i wrote some absolute dogshit prose
that was my last ditch effort hail mary. fuck it, universe. you win. i should never have tried writing for the first place, i'm sorry i ever thought i could
November 20, 2025 at 4:41 PM
ok so writing sprints are useless for me now too apparently
i tried for like 5 minutes but i wrote some absolute dogshit prose
that was my last ditch effort hail mary. fuck it, universe. you win. i should never have tried writing for the first place, i'm sorry i ever thought i could
i tried for like 5 minutes but i wrote some absolute dogshit prose
that was my last ditch effort hail mary. fuck it, universe. you win. i should never have tried writing for the first place, i'm sorry i ever thought i could
once again dropping my hot take (that shouldn't be that controversial) that writers who reject any feedback are bad writers
if you say "but it didn't resonate with me! it's not my vision!" consider: your vision was bad
you're not the one who has to like your book. if you hate it? get over it
if you say "but it didn't resonate with me! it's not my vision!" consider: your vision was bad
you're not the one who has to like your book. if you hate it? get over it
November 19, 2025 at 11:37 PM
once again dropping my hot take (that shouldn't be that controversial) that writers who reject any feedback are bad writers
if you say "but it didn't resonate with me! it's not my vision!" consider: your vision was bad
you're not the one who has to like your book. if you hate it? get over it
if you say "but it didn't resonate with me! it's not my vision!" consider: your vision was bad
you're not the one who has to like your book. if you hate it? get over it
also after today i'm more convinced than ever that i'm a shit writer
editing my book based on crit has made me HATE IT. except i'm addressing problems? thats making it better? why do i hate the better version and hate the worse version?
(hint: it's because i have shit taste bc im a bad writer)
editing my book based on crit has made me HATE IT. except i'm addressing problems? thats making it better? why do i hate the better version and hate the worse version?
(hint: it's because i have shit taste bc im a bad writer)
November 19, 2025 at 11:32 PM
also after today i'm more convinced than ever that i'm a shit writer
editing my book based on crit has made me HATE IT. except i'm addressing problems? thats making it better? why do i hate the better version and hate the worse version?
(hint: it's because i have shit taste bc im a bad writer)
editing my book based on crit has made me HATE IT. except i'm addressing problems? thats making it better? why do i hate the better version and hate the worse version?
(hint: it's because i have shit taste bc im a bad writer)
welp, today i got talked into dumping my crit partner
bc yeah i'm letting her dictate my entire story, while i'm scared to even interpret her characters wrong, i'm giving her rough drafts, and she won't let me see hers til its done
its one sided. i hate her now, and im just... not gonna tell her
bc yeah i'm letting her dictate my entire story, while i'm scared to even interpret her characters wrong, i'm giving her rough drafts, and she won't let me see hers til its done
its one sided. i hate her now, and im just... not gonna tell her
November 19, 2025 at 11:27 PM
welp, today i got talked into dumping my crit partner
bc yeah i'm letting her dictate my entire story, while i'm scared to even interpret her characters wrong, i'm giving her rough drafts, and she won't let me see hers til its done
its one sided. i hate her now, and im just... not gonna tell her
bc yeah i'm letting her dictate my entire story, while i'm scared to even interpret her characters wrong, i'm giving her rough drafts, and she won't let me see hers til its done
its one sided. i hate her now, and im just... not gonna tell her
is there any nanowrimo-type replacement site?
its occurring to me that i ALWAYS felt like shit about writing but i was able to get it done (only) during nanowrimo events where i HAD to hit a daily word count. i need external accountability
is there anything like this?
its occurring to me that i ALWAYS felt like shit about writing but i was able to get it done (only) during nanowrimo events where i HAD to hit a daily word count. i need external accountability
is there anything like this?
November 19, 2025 at 6:23 PM
is there any nanowrimo-type replacement site?
its occurring to me that i ALWAYS felt like shit about writing but i was able to get it done (only) during nanowrimo events where i HAD to hit a daily word count. i need external accountability
is there anything like this?
its occurring to me that i ALWAYS felt like shit about writing but i was able to get it done (only) during nanowrimo events where i HAD to hit a daily word count. i need external accountability
is there anything like this?
has there ever been a television protagonist more goddamn relateable than carol sturka
like you could tell me vince gilligan has me bugged and used me as a template while drafting pluribus and i would believe you
a bitchy insecure lesbian fantasy novelist who hates her book? she's literally me
like you could tell me vince gilligan has me bugged and used me as a template while drafting pluribus and i would believe you
a bitchy insecure lesbian fantasy novelist who hates her book? she's literally me
November 19, 2025 at 5:33 PM
has there ever been a television protagonist more goddamn relateable than carol sturka
like you could tell me vince gilligan has me bugged and used me as a template while drafting pluribus and i would believe you
a bitchy insecure lesbian fantasy novelist who hates her book? she's literally me
like you could tell me vince gilligan has me bugged and used me as a template while drafting pluribus and i would believe you
a bitchy insecure lesbian fantasy novelist who hates her book? she's literally me
ok, to explain my "i'm paralyzed by writing so i can't anymore" issue
i was cleaning my camera roll and found this from forever ago
if i wrote this i would highlight that SO FAST with "no fucking shit, this is obvious, show don't tell, make this dialogue, we KNOW he cares for cersei"
i was cleaning my camera roll and found this from forever ago
if i wrote this i would highlight that SO FAST with "no fucking shit, this is obvious, show don't tell, make this dialogue, we KNOW he cares for cersei"
November 19, 2025 at 4:52 AM
ok, to explain my "i'm paralyzed by writing so i can't anymore" issue
i was cleaning my camera roll and found this from forever ago
if i wrote this i would highlight that SO FAST with "no fucking shit, this is obvious, show don't tell, make this dialogue, we KNOW he cares for cersei"
i was cleaning my camera roll and found this from forever ago
if i wrote this i would highlight that SO FAST with "no fucking shit, this is obvious, show don't tell, make this dialogue, we KNOW he cares for cersei"
another question. and then i'm done posting forever
you've seen me bitch and moan and cry and threaten to quit writing
be honest. you guys don't think i should do this anymore, right? your words come naturally to you. you don't overthink it
if i'm paralyzed, then i hate writing, right?
you've seen me bitch and moan and cry and threaten to quit writing
be honest. you guys don't think i should do this anymore, right? your words come naturally to you. you don't overthink it
if i'm paralyzed, then i hate writing, right?
November 19, 2025 at 2:10 AM
another question. and then i'm done posting forever
you've seen me bitch and moan and cry and threaten to quit writing
be honest. you guys don't think i should do this anymore, right? your words come naturally to you. you don't overthink it
if i'm paralyzed, then i hate writing, right?
you've seen me bitch and moan and cry and threaten to quit writing
be honest. you guys don't think i should do this anymore, right? your words come naturally to you. you don't overthink it
if i'm paralyzed, then i hate writing, right?
oh right i forgot most people don't have panic attacks over writing and don't resent themselves because that's not normal when you enjoy writing
right. i forgot. several people here have pointed out i hate writing and told me to quit
sorry. you're right. i will. if i loved it id just do it
right. i forgot. several people here have pointed out i hate writing and told me to quit
sorry. you're right. i will. if i loved it id just do it
November 19, 2025 at 1:43 AM
oh right i forgot most people don't have panic attacks over writing and don't resent themselves because that's not normal when you enjoy writing
right. i forgot. several people here have pointed out i hate writing and told me to quit
sorry. you're right. i will. if i loved it id just do it
right. i forgot. several people here have pointed out i hate writing and told me to quit
sorry. you're right. i will. if i loved it id just do it
can i ask a writing question? i swear i wont respond
how are you guys able to write without overthinking every single damn sentence? how can you write without changing every dialogue 5 times wondering if it's subtle enough
how are you able to just... write... and have it come out sounding decent?
how are you guys able to write without overthinking every single damn sentence? how can you write without changing every dialogue 5 times wondering if it's subtle enough
how are you able to just... write... and have it come out sounding decent?
November 19, 2025 at 1:32 AM
can i ask a writing question? i swear i wont respond
how are you guys able to write without overthinking every single damn sentence? how can you write without changing every dialogue 5 times wondering if it's subtle enough
how are you able to just... write... and have it come out sounding decent?
how are you guys able to write without overthinking every single damn sentence? how can you write without changing every dialogue 5 times wondering if it's subtle enough
how are you able to just... write... and have it come out sounding decent?
yeah there's literally no way i'm writing anymore ever again
i can't. i'm writing 300 words that take me a month to recover from
i'm overthinking every single sentence and i'm still incoherent. i used to be a good writer, but i'm not anymore
i want to do this more than anything, but i CAN'T
i can't. i'm writing 300 words that take me a month to recover from
i'm overthinking every single sentence and i'm still incoherent. i used to be a good writer, but i'm not anymore
i want to do this more than anything, but i CAN'T
November 18, 2025 at 11:28 PM
yeah there's literally no way i'm writing anymore ever again
i can't. i'm writing 300 words that take me a month to recover from
i'm overthinking every single sentence and i'm still incoherent. i used to be a good writer, but i'm not anymore
i want to do this more than anything, but i CAN'T
i can't. i'm writing 300 words that take me a month to recover from
i'm overthinking every single sentence and i'm still incoherent. i used to be a good writer, but i'm not anymore
i want to do this more than anything, but i CAN'T
it genuinely upsets me that i have to labour over every single sentence, spent 3 hours on 500 words, only to still completely fuck it up and have it look like a 0 draft that took me 20 minutes
how are you people "just writing" without thinking and having it be decent? how it is second nature?
how are you people "just writing" without thinking and having it be decent? how it is second nature?
November 18, 2025 at 11:18 PM
it genuinely upsets me that i have to labour over every single sentence, spent 3 hours on 500 words, only to still completely fuck it up and have it look like a 0 draft that took me 20 minutes
how are you people "just writing" without thinking and having it be decent? how it is second nature?
how are you people "just writing" without thinking and having it be decent? how it is second nature?
sometimes i think i might not be such a bad writer after all! sometimes i think i can fix it!
and you know what the best cure is? trying to write, or reading stuff i wrote recently
snaps me write out of that delusion every time. like oh right, my mistake, i'm an inept piece of shit, i forgot
and you know what the best cure is? trying to write, or reading stuff i wrote recently
snaps me write out of that delusion every time. like oh right, my mistake, i'm an inept piece of shit, i forgot
November 18, 2025 at 10:33 PM
sometimes i think i might not be such a bad writer after all! sometimes i think i can fix it!
and you know what the best cure is? trying to write, or reading stuff i wrote recently
snaps me write out of that delusion every time. like oh right, my mistake, i'm an inept piece of shit, i forgot
and you know what the best cure is? trying to write, or reading stuff i wrote recently
snaps me write out of that delusion every time. like oh right, my mistake, i'm an inept piece of shit, i forgot
writing communities: write for yourself! your vision is important! dont change your book on the whims of one person!
also writing communities: will shit on anyone who doesn't implement every feedback because "ugh i'm just trying to help but whatever!"
both cant be true (i'm with the 2nd group tho)
also writing communities: will shit on anyone who doesn't implement every feedback because "ugh i'm just trying to help but whatever!"
both cant be true (i'm with the 2nd group tho)
November 18, 2025 at 9:40 PM
writing communities: write for yourself! your vision is important! dont change your book on the whims of one person!
also writing communities: will shit on anyone who doesn't implement every feedback because "ugh i'm just trying to help but whatever!"
both cant be true (i'm with the 2nd group tho)
also writing communities: will shit on anyone who doesn't implement every feedback because "ugh i'm just trying to help but whatever!"
both cant be true (i'm with the 2nd group tho)
vaguely inspired by the r/writing post that got pisstaked on r/wcj where a guy thought it would be super cool to write a book where literally nothing happens
his vision is bad and we are right to tell him to change it
your words and ideas aren't precious if nobody cares
his vision is bad and we are right to tell him to change it
your words and ideas aren't precious if nobody cares
i dont buy the propaganda that "only listen to feedback that supports your vision and improves it!"
sometimes writers have bad visions. you want to write a standard fae romantasy except whoops its a tragedy on the last page?
people would be right to tell you to change that if you want it to sell
sometimes writers have bad visions. you want to write a standard fae romantasy except whoops its a tragedy on the last page?
people would be right to tell you to change that if you want it to sell
November 18, 2025 at 8:55 PM
vaguely inspired by the r/writing post that got pisstaked on r/wcj where a guy thought it would be super cool to write a book where literally nothing happens
his vision is bad and we are right to tell him to change it
your words and ideas aren't precious if nobody cares
his vision is bad and we are right to tell him to change it
your words and ideas aren't precious if nobody cares
i dont buy the propaganda that "only listen to feedback that supports your vision and improves it!"
sometimes writers have bad visions. you want to write a standard fae romantasy except whoops its a tragedy on the last page?
people would be right to tell you to change that if you want it to sell
sometimes writers have bad visions. you want to write a standard fae romantasy except whoops its a tragedy on the last page?
people would be right to tell you to change that if you want it to sell
November 18, 2025 at 8:54 PM
i dont buy the propaganda that "only listen to feedback that supports your vision and improves it!"
sometimes writers have bad visions. you want to write a standard fae romantasy except whoops its a tragedy on the last page?
people would be right to tell you to change that if you want it to sell
sometimes writers have bad visions. you want to write a standard fae romantasy except whoops its a tragedy on the last page?
people would be right to tell you to change that if you want it to sell
i think interiority is gonna be what makes me quit
ive had enough people shred me because interiority breaks show don't tell and it's redundant, so i stopped writing it, but now my work feels hollow
i know i just need to make it say something NEW, i can't wrangle it. my characters are too 1D 🤷♀️
ive had enough people shred me because interiority breaks show don't tell and it's redundant, so i stopped writing it, but now my work feels hollow
i know i just need to make it say something NEW, i can't wrangle it. my characters are too 1D 🤷♀️
November 18, 2025 at 7:06 PM
i think interiority is gonna be what makes me quit
ive had enough people shred me because interiority breaks show don't tell and it's redundant, so i stopped writing it, but now my work feels hollow
i know i just need to make it say something NEW, i can't wrangle it. my characters are too 1D 🤷♀️
ive had enough people shred me because interiority breaks show don't tell and it's redundant, so i stopped writing it, but now my work feels hollow
i know i just need to make it say something NEW, i can't wrangle it. my characters are too 1D 🤷♀️
about crit. here's an example of what i mean
i know someone who wrote a book. gave it to betas. didn't accept a SHRED of feedback or crit, with the lone exception of adding a single, short scene. because "i know what i'm doing"
yet her critique of others (myself included) forced us to change
1/
i know someone who wrote a book. gave it to betas. didn't accept a SHRED of feedback or crit, with the lone exception of adding a single, short scene. because "i know what i'm doing"
yet her critique of others (myself included) forced us to change
1/
November 18, 2025 at 6:30 PM
about crit. here's an example of what i mean
i know someone who wrote a book. gave it to betas. didn't accept a SHRED of feedback or crit, with the lone exception of adding a single, short scene. because "i know what i'm doing"
yet her critique of others (myself included) forced us to change
1/
i know someone who wrote a book. gave it to betas. didn't accept a SHRED of feedback or crit, with the lone exception of adding a single, short scene. because "i know what i'm doing"
yet her critique of others (myself included) forced us to change
1/
well...
can someone help me understand why i *have* to listen to every crit ("you're writing for readers, if they don't like something, address it") but i'm not allowed to give crit ("i know what i want, you're trying to destroy my vision, you just didn't get it")
how does that make sense?
can someone help me understand why i *have* to listen to every crit ("you're writing for readers, if they don't like something, address it") but i'm not allowed to give crit ("i know what i want, you're trying to destroy my vision, you just didn't get it")
how does that make sense?
November 18, 2025 at 6:04 PM
well...
can someone help me understand why i *have* to listen to every crit ("you're writing for readers, if they don't like something, address it") but i'm not allowed to give crit ("i know what i want, you're trying to destroy my vision, you just didn't get it")
how does that make sense?
can someone help me understand why i *have* to listen to every crit ("you're writing for readers, if they don't like something, address it") but i'm not allowed to give crit ("i know what i want, you're trying to destroy my vision, you just didn't get it")
how does that make sense?
i get now why i'm not allowed to give crit, but i have to implement every crit given to me
my crits are subjective. i don't like something, but it's my taste, it still works
someone doesnt like something i wrote? theyre telling me its objectively bad writing and helping me
i get it now. my b guys
my crits are subjective. i don't like something, but it's my taste, it still works
someone doesnt like something i wrote? theyre telling me its objectively bad writing and helping me
i get it now. my b guys
November 18, 2025 at 5:55 PM
i get now why i'm not allowed to give crit, but i have to implement every crit given to me
my crits are subjective. i don't like something, but it's my taste, it still works
someone doesnt like something i wrote? theyre telling me its objectively bad writing and helping me
i get it now. my b guys
my crits are subjective. i don't like something, but it's my taste, it still works
someone doesnt like something i wrote? theyre telling me its objectively bad writing and helping me
i get it now. my b guys
Okay here's another book beef I have
Someone once told me never to include new POV characters in a sequel because readers don't like that
I'm sorry but readers can get over it, and if they can't, they're children
If I want to write John and Jane in book 1 and add Jack in book 2, deal with it
Someone once told me never to include new POV characters in a sequel because readers don't like that
I'm sorry but readers can get over it, and if they can't, they're children
If I want to write John and Jane in book 1 and add Jack in book 2, deal with it
November 8, 2025 at 6:13 PM
Okay here's another book beef I have
Someone once told me never to include new POV characters in a sequel because readers don't like that
I'm sorry but readers can get over it, and if they can't, they're children
If I want to write John and Jane in book 1 and add Jack in book 2, deal with it
Someone once told me never to include new POV characters in a sequel because readers don't like that
I'm sorry but readers can get over it, and if they can't, they're children
If I want to write John and Jane in book 1 and add Jack in book 2, deal with it