ultimately though it does mean hes struggling with his own desirability more in his solo wolcanon. his brain likes rules likes structures he likes knowing concretely what his partners get out of an experience. "i think he just likes you" impossible. there must be something going on.

which is fine. lonnys desperately attracted to him. can eroticize a bit of the unspoken. part of why he likes riling him up to be annoyed with his employees, it gives him glimpses. but its very rarely realized in his direction and when it is it usually means theres a serious discussion in the offing

cid doesnt have the energy for anything veering on a staid dynamic. even the lighter stuff, titles and some intro level funishments, always makes him feel a little silly. He doesn't get much of a rush out of powertripping unless he's legitimately pissed off at someone and he rarely is with lonny

hes capable of going without i think ultimately the emotional connection matters to him a little more than Dynamics. Going out to find someone for the purposes of domming would feel a little hollow to him. but its crazy how this guys sense of well being snaps into place while wearing a day collar

cid vs raubahn vs hancock if you will-

very easy to call his bluff by just making him continue whatever he was doing when he got interrupted while its happening. buys you twenty minutes of red-faced silence