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21yrs 🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️ | they/he | OSDD 1 | chronically ill
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Just wanna warn any fandom accounts that have started following me here I don’t talk about that on this page. This is my “I have a shitty family and bad health“ vent page
Feel free to stay if that’s your jam but if its not I promise you’ll have more fun on @logannotfound.bsky.social (my other page)
Feel free to stay if that’s your jam but if its not I promise you’ll have more fun on @logannotfound.bsky.social (my other page)
Sometimes I look at my coping mechanism and just have to tell myself “at least it’s not drugs”
Cause if that’s the standard I’m doing amazing
Cause if that’s the standard I’m doing amazing
November 6, 2025 at 11:33 PM
Sometimes I look at my coping mechanism and just have to tell myself “at least it’s not drugs”
Cause if that’s the standard I’m doing amazing
Cause if that’s the standard I’m doing amazing
Having littles in the system means stuffed animals just got put on our “talk about in therapy today” list and it is 100% serious 😭😭
November 6, 2025 at 10:15 PM
Having littles in the system means stuffed animals just got put on our “talk about in therapy today” list and it is 100% serious 😭😭
On the topic of things I hate
Speaking up for myself. It makes me wanna puke and die (probably at the same time)
Speaking up for myself. It makes me wanna puke and die (probably at the same time)
November 6, 2025 at 8:17 PM
On the topic of things I hate
Speaking up for myself. It makes me wanna puke and die (probably at the same time)
Speaking up for myself. It makes me wanna puke and die (probably at the same time)
I hate being an adult. I had to wake up early to make some phone calls and
I hate it. I want sleep. I want to not have to be responsible
I hate it. I want sleep. I want to not have to be responsible
November 6, 2025 at 6:24 PM
I hate being an adult. I had to wake up early to make some phone calls and
I hate it. I want sleep. I want to not have to be responsible
I hate it. I want sleep. I want to not have to be responsible
For once in my life I’d like to be wrong
It seems as tho I may have accurately project another disorder/condition
My doctor said the gallstones are likely not causing issues rn which means I was right 🫠
I just wanna be wrong once and it actually be a tiny small fixable issue 😭😭
It seems as tho I may have accurately project another disorder/condition
My doctor said the gallstones are likely not causing issues rn which means I was right 🫠
I just wanna be wrong once and it actually be a tiny small fixable issue 😭😭
November 5, 2025 at 10:06 PM
For once in my life I’d like to be wrong
It seems as tho I may have accurately project another disorder/condition
My doctor said the gallstones are likely not causing issues rn which means I was right 🫠
I just wanna be wrong once and it actually be a tiny small fixable issue 😭😭
It seems as tho I may have accurately project another disorder/condition
My doctor said the gallstones are likely not causing issues rn which means I was right 🫠
I just wanna be wrong once and it actually be a tiny small fixable issue 😭😭
It’s just hit me I’m going to have to tell another person about my father within the like next week ish
And I’m not loving that
I honestly try to forget he exists because talking about him comes with talking about one of the most sensitive topics probably ever and that isn’t fun
And I’m not loving that
I honestly try to forget he exists because talking about him comes with talking about one of the most sensitive topics probably ever and that isn’t fun
November 5, 2025 at 9:05 AM
It’s just hit me I’m going to have to tell another person about my father within the like next week ish
And I’m not loving that
I honestly try to forget he exists because talking about him comes with talking about one of the most sensitive topics probably ever and that isn’t fun
And I’m not loving that
I honestly try to forget he exists because talking about him comes with talking about one of the most sensitive topics probably ever and that isn’t fun
I am so done with the constant appts
I have one tomorrow
One next week and
One the week after that
And just medical stuff not therapy or MH based treatment
I have one tomorrow
One next week and
One the week after that
And just medical stuff not therapy or MH based treatment
November 5, 2025 at 7:31 AM
I am so done with the constant appts
I have one tomorrow
One next week and
One the week after that
And just medical stuff not therapy or MH based treatment
I have one tomorrow
One next week and
One the week after that
And just medical stuff not therapy or MH based treatment
After a little bit of googling idk if gallstones are the cause of my symptoms
It’s mostly right side pain and upper abdominal pain according to the Mayo Clinic and that’s like 1% of my symptoms and not even full story of the 1%
So either we ain’t got the full picture or the Mayo Clinic is wrong 🙃🫠
It’s mostly right side pain and upper abdominal pain according to the Mayo Clinic and that’s like 1% of my symptoms and not even full story of the 1%
So either we ain’t got the full picture or the Mayo Clinic is wrong 🙃🫠
November 5, 2025 at 1:04 AM
After a little bit of googling idk if gallstones are the cause of my symptoms
It’s mostly right side pain and upper abdominal pain according to the Mayo Clinic and that’s like 1% of my symptoms and not even full story of the 1%
So either we ain’t got the full picture or the Mayo Clinic is wrong 🙃🫠
It’s mostly right side pain and upper abdominal pain according to the Mayo Clinic and that’s like 1% of my symptoms and not even full story of the 1%
So either we ain’t got the full picture or the Mayo Clinic is wrong 🙃🫠
It’s gonna be some sick and twisted joke if I have gallstones and delayed gastric emptying
I’m considering finding god and fighting him if I have both cause he’s not as funny as he thinks he is
I’m considering finding god and fighting him if I have both cause he’s not as funny as he thinks he is
November 4, 2025 at 10:51 PM
It’s gonna be some sick and twisted joke if I have gallstones and delayed gastric emptying
I’m considering finding god and fighting him if I have both cause he’s not as funny as he thinks he is
I’m considering finding god and fighting him if I have both cause he’s not as funny as he thinks he is
Sometimes I forget how badly my dissociative disorder effects my pain tolerance, recognition of symptoms, and the normalization of symptoms
Like wdym I’m supposed to be in excruciating pain from [insert issue]?? I barely feel it and even when I do its not even 10/10 pain
Like wdym I’m supposed to be in excruciating pain from [insert issue]?? I barely feel it and even when I do its not even 10/10 pain
November 4, 2025 at 6:19 PM
Sometimes I forget how badly my dissociative disorder effects my pain tolerance, recognition of symptoms, and the normalization of symptoms
Like wdym I’m supposed to be in excruciating pain from [insert issue]?? I barely feel it and even when I do its not even 10/10 pain
Like wdym I’m supposed to be in excruciating pain from [insert issue]?? I barely feel it and even when I do its not even 10/10 pain
I probably have gallstones 😀
No clue what that means but I can for sure say it isn’t fun
No clue what that means but I can for sure say it isn’t fun
November 4, 2025 at 5:26 PM
I probably have gallstones 😀
No clue what that means but I can for sure say it isn’t fun
No clue what that means but I can for sure say it isn’t fun
Being the youngest in the waiting room is something I’ll never get over or stop being sad about in general
Everyone is probably at least 50+ and I’m 22
Everyone is probably at least 50+ and I’m 22
November 4, 2025 at 4:42 PM
Being the youngest in the waiting room is something I’ll never get over or stop being sad about in general
Everyone is probably at least 50+ and I’m 22
Everyone is probably at least 50+ and I’m 22
Being chronically ill and having a best friend is so weird sometimes
I just had to text him and warn him about an ultrasound I’m getting so I didn’t scare him shitless when I randomly drop the info that I’m at a hospital tomorrow morning
I just had to text him and warn him about an ultrasound I’m getting so I didn’t scare him shitless when I randomly drop the info that I’m at a hospital tomorrow morning
November 4, 2025 at 4:12 AM
Being chronically ill and having a best friend is so weird sometimes
I just had to text him and warn him about an ultrasound I’m getting so I didn’t scare him shitless when I randomly drop the info that I’m at a hospital tomorrow morning
I just had to text him and warn him about an ultrasound I’m getting so I didn’t scare him shitless when I randomly drop the info that I’m at a hospital tomorrow morning
I say this a lot but I can’t stand my mother
Instead of being happy I was *finally* able to shower after like a month cause my chronic illnesses are causing too many issues to worry about hygiene
She’s worried I’m going to wake up my uncle by tapping my conditioner bottle
Instead of being happy I was *finally* able to shower after like a month cause my chronic illnesses are causing too many issues to worry about hygiene
She’s worried I’m going to wake up my uncle by tapping my conditioner bottle
November 3, 2025 at 3:37 AM
I say this a lot but I can’t stand my mother
Instead of being happy I was *finally* able to shower after like a month cause my chronic illnesses are causing too many issues to worry about hygiene
She’s worried I’m going to wake up my uncle by tapping my conditioner bottle
Instead of being happy I was *finally* able to shower after like a month cause my chronic illnesses are causing too many issues to worry about hygiene
She’s worried I’m going to wake up my uncle by tapping my conditioner bottle
The need to take albuterol and nausea meds overlap ever so slightly so now
Idk if I need one or both or neither
The life of allergies ig
Idk if I need one or both or neither
The life of allergies ig
November 3, 2025 at 2:37 AM
The need to take albuterol and nausea meds overlap ever so slightly so now
Idk if I need one or both or neither
The life of allergies ig
Idk if I need one or both or neither
The life of allergies ig
I genuinely can’t stand my mother someday
Instead of asking the pharmacy that has the information she came home and asked me with a fraction of the information I’d need to answer the question
God forbid a man wants his mom to use her brain 🙄
Instead of asking the pharmacy that has the information she came home and asked me with a fraction of the information I’d need to answer the question
God forbid a man wants his mom to use her brain 🙄
November 2, 2025 at 10:07 PM
I genuinely can’t stand my mother someday
Instead of asking the pharmacy that has the information she came home and asked me with a fraction of the information I’d need to answer the question
God forbid a man wants his mom to use her brain 🙄
Instead of asking the pharmacy that has the information she came home and asked me with a fraction of the information I’d need to answer the question
God forbid a man wants his mom to use her brain 🙄
I genuinely have zero clue how I will be able to fix my sleep schedule in like a week and a half
I have to go from 1:30pm wake up time to 7/7:30am wake up time 😭😭
I have to go from 1:30pm wake up time to 7/7:30am wake up time 😭😭
November 1, 2025 at 2:23 PM
I genuinely have zero clue how I will be able to fix my sleep schedule in like a week and a half
I have to go from 1:30pm wake up time to 7/7:30am wake up time 😭😭
I have to go from 1:30pm wake up time to 7/7:30am wake up time 😭😭
Being a system of “why do we need sleep that’s wasted time” and “it’s okay you’re allowed to rest” is the bane of all of our existence cause
Then we just stay up all night and feel guilty about it
Then we just stay up all night and feel guilty about it
November 1, 2025 at 1:46 PM
Being a system of “why do we need sleep that’s wasted time” and “it’s okay you’re allowed to rest” is the bane of all of our existence cause
Then we just stay up all night and feel guilty about it
Then we just stay up all night and feel guilty about it
I just found out day light savings on Sunday
I am so busy next week. I can’t be adjusting to a new schedule on top of the stress of next week 😭😭
Being and adult is NOT worth it
I am so busy next week. I can’t be adjusting to a new schedule on top of the stress of next week 😭😭
Being and adult is NOT worth it
October 31, 2025 at 6:36 AM
I just found out day light savings on Sunday
I am so busy next week. I can’t be adjusting to a new schedule on top of the stress of next week 😭😭
Being and adult is NOT worth it
I am so busy next week. I can’t be adjusting to a new schedule on top of the stress of next week 😭😭
Being and adult is NOT worth it
Just some random thoughts about therapy
I think I’m too self aware or too good at self therapizing. I do all the things that a therapist would recommend or want me to learn
Self soothing, comfort items, safe exposures to triggers, recoding negative connotations, writing, etc.
I think I’m too self aware or too good at self therapizing. I do all the things that a therapist would recommend or want me to learn
Self soothing, comfort items, safe exposures to triggers, recoding negative connotations, writing, etc.
October 30, 2025 at 10:36 PM
Just some random thoughts about therapy
I think I’m too self aware or too good at self therapizing. I do all the things that a therapist would recommend or want me to learn
Self soothing, comfort items, safe exposures to triggers, recoding negative connotations, writing, etc.
I think I’m too self aware or too good at self therapizing. I do all the things that a therapist would recommend or want me to learn
Self soothing, comfort items, safe exposures to triggers, recoding negative connotations, writing, etc.
I’m tweaking over this whole not having access to my regular therapist for 6-8 weeks thing
I’m praying to whatever higher power exists that I can just move my appointment to after program is over each day so there’s no scheduling conflict
I need my weekly appt like I need air to breathe
I’m praying to whatever higher power exists that I can just move my appointment to after program is over each day so there’s no scheduling conflict
I need my weekly appt like I need air to breathe
October 30, 2025 at 2:09 AM
I’m tweaking over this whole not having access to my regular therapist for 6-8 weeks thing
I’m praying to whatever higher power exists that I can just move my appointment to after program is over each day so there’s no scheduling conflict
I need my weekly appt like I need air to breathe
I’m praying to whatever higher power exists that I can just move my appointment to after program is over each day so there’s no scheduling conflict
I need my weekly appt like I need air to breathe
If one more doctor charts something I never said or calls me “Class three severe obese“ or whatever the proper term is I will loose my mind
My weight was only ever a problem when I dropped like ten pounds from malnutrition and I‘ve been in absolute hell trying to maintain my body’s healthy weight
My weight was only ever a problem when I dropped like ten pounds from malnutrition and I‘ve been in absolute hell trying to maintain my body’s healthy weight
October 30, 2025 at 1:01 AM
If one more doctor charts something I never said or calls me “Class three severe obese“ or whatever the proper term is I will loose my mind
My weight was only ever a problem when I dropped like ten pounds from malnutrition and I‘ve been in absolute hell trying to maintain my body’s healthy weight
My weight was only ever a problem when I dropped like ten pounds from malnutrition and I‘ve been in absolute hell trying to maintain my body’s healthy weight
I think ppl forget those who have attachment issues and really vulnerable things to talk about in therapy will get attached to their therapist
I am very attached to mine because we have a rapport and I trust her and we’ve built our therapeutic relationship
I am very attached to mine because we have a rapport and I trust her and we’ve built our therapeutic relationship
October 30, 2025 at 12:19 AM
I think ppl forget those who have attachment issues and really vulnerable things to talk about in therapy will get attached to their therapist
I am very attached to mine because we have a rapport and I trust her and we’ve built our therapeutic relationship
I am very attached to mine because we have a rapport and I trust her and we’ve built our therapeutic relationship
The ED clinic wants me to do partial hospitalization
Which is just you go home after instead of living in
I can do virtual so it’s not a big problem but damn I wasn’t expecting the big guns days one 😭😭
Which is just you go home after instead of living in
I can do virtual so it’s not a big problem but damn I wasn’t expecting the big guns days one 😭😭
October 29, 2025 at 7:57 PM
The ED clinic wants me to do partial hospitalization
Which is just you go home after instead of living in
I can do virtual so it’s not a big problem but damn I wasn’t expecting the big guns days one 😭😭
Which is just you go home after instead of living in
I can do virtual so it’s not a big problem but damn I wasn’t expecting the big guns days one 😭😭
If my bio says I am chronically ill maybe let’s not say shit like “just be glad you don’t have the lower back pain ppl in their 30s do”
I actually developed my chronic back pain at 19/20 but I have had it off and on since I was a child due to said chronic illness and family history
I actually developed my chronic back pain at 19/20 but I have had it off and on since I was a child due to said chronic illness and family history
October 29, 2025 at 4:54 AM
If my bio says I am chronically ill maybe let’s not say shit like “just be glad you don’t have the lower back pain ppl in their 30s do”
I actually developed my chronic back pain at 19/20 but I have had it off and on since I was a child due to said chronic illness and family history
I actually developed my chronic back pain at 19/20 but I have had it off and on since I was a child due to said chronic illness and family history