It’s actually so good

“Slopper”

I’m so using that

I needed to hear this tonight. Thank you!

Yes! Do it!

That’s the guy that writes history, I think

If you’ve read all that text, I’d like to thank you. It feels quite ironic to be going through this during men’s mental health month. I hope soon I can continue being the silly lil guy I want to be, and I hope I can see you there.

Until then, take care of yourself out there.

It’s tearing apart every aspect of my life. I can’t even shower without feeling like I am wasting water. I feel inhuman.

This is not an easy condition to fix. And I can’t even begin to try to on my own. I’m hopeful my doctors can help. This is a process that takes time. Cont.

I haven’t felt like I’ve been fully me. I’ve been slowly dying inside just trying to live in a world that constantly tells me I don’t deserve to. It’s been beaten into my psyche that the world doesn’t want or need me and that I have no good use. Cont.

This is why my streams have been so sporadic and why there’s sometimes been a month or more where I don’t go live at all. I simply haven’t had the focus or energy to be able to make anything special.

It feels like a large part of my being was just… shut down. Cont.

I try my best not to show it but I really am not doing well. Mentally, physically, or financially. Vtubing has been my escape from a shitty reality I am surrounded by, but for about a year now I’ve felt as if I have not been of sound mind enough to even try most days. Cont.