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i think i need a refund on my ramen it didn't make me smarter
|| 15 || Au?DHD || they/she/he
Proshippers, AI “artists”, Bigots, Tr*mp supporters DNI
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posted two new fics on my ao3 (yay, both yellow-centric) and one more on the way (blue with chronic fatigue and seasonal depression)

i'm unfortunately quitting skating after camp ends, i truly love the sport but financially it's not going to be feasible and i just don't want to be a burden :'3
December 22, 2025 at 12:42 AM
YAY (i know inevitably i'd probably have to purchase the rest of the cg but and rip my wallet after skating + this) but she's been upgraded to my second favorite character and green needs a buddy
(she/he/they yellow)
December 2, 2025 at 10:29 PM
i can only afford one so obv i went with this buddy who sits above my desk and observes me crashing out over chem
November 29, 2025 at 8:50 PM
venty-ish post? ik people grow and change eventually but you chose the healthcare path for a reason and I really just hope you aren’t like this to your future patients

I know it’s critical but you HAVE to have at least some empathy and know what you’re doing for your careers and this ain’t it :(
November 11, 2025 at 9:44 PM
ROYAL AU (i got one of those) WITH THE STICKSSS

honestly this is lowkey similar to mine with slightly different beats
AvAM Royal AU but Green is the designated bodyguard to Orange (next in line to the throne after their brother, Chosen) while Purple is the (exiled) ex-prince of the kingdom, trying to assassinate the Hollows and regain the throne for themselves

(1/?)
November 11, 2025 at 9:42 PM
that happened :)
happy skating comp day!!! (lowkey sorta mega cooked but it’s for my skills to come through)
November 2, 2025 at 6:21 PM
happy skating comp day!!! (lowkey sorta mega cooked but it’s for my skills to come through)
November 2, 2025 at 3:23 PM
can my school genuinely stop using ai images for their insta posts and posters

:((((
October 28, 2025 at 12:37 PM
i'd argue double 3-turns are actually harder than twizzles. they shouldn't be (considering twizzles are just multiple fast 3-turns in a row) but i swear if on competition day i nail all of my jumps and spins and then fall on a *turn* i would actually be mad
the feeling of being so dizzy exiting a spin you end up fucking up the rest of your program because you barely have time to recuperate before going on to FUCKING TWIZZLES

they look so pretty but oh my god they should not be this difficult
October 26, 2025 at 12:40 PM
the feeling of being so dizzy exiting a spin you end up fucking up the rest of your program because you barely have time to recuperate before going on to FUCKING TWIZZLES

they look so pretty but oh my god they should not be this difficult
October 25, 2025 at 2:53 PM
i got called “annoying” and “insufferable” for telling someone “uhh maybe you shouldn’t use chat-gpt for your english analysis” and yes i get writing is difficult but that’s when you wing it
i wouldn’t call myself academically “gifted” but as my gf said “i’d rather read human-made BS than ai slop”
What'd I do to live in a world where the smart, academically focused classmates use c-gpt and a-i for school and I, a cloud-brained and no. 1 dumbass, refuses to.

Shouldn't it be like... The other way around?? (And obv, YES, I HATE A-I)
October 25, 2025 at 2:51 PM
yayyyyyyy
October 20, 2025 at 3:06 PM
so anatomy class is cool fun and games and all and here i am at midnight trying to memorize all of the bones of the human skeleton instead of doing my project because I'm really cool this way

(send help I have a big exam over this lmao)
October 18, 2025 at 12:00 AM
you said in one of your sessions that your favorite color was purple.

you remembered? you wrote it down?
it’s my job.
i don’t know my own favorite color sometimes.

why do you like purple? why not colors like green or red or blue or pink?
October 13, 2025 at 12:03 PM
October 13, 2025 at 11:58 AM
wippppppppppppppp

guys i’m trying one day i will draw my cg designs… one day…
October 11, 2025 at 4:43 PM
wippppppppppppppp

guys i’m trying one day i will draw my cg designs… one day…
October 11, 2025 at 4:43 PM
SS not mine!

FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS BEE PIECE OF SHIT STILL CONTINUES TO HAUNT ME
October 11, 2025 at 1:34 PM
OH FUCK-
October 11, 2025 at 1:27 PM
October 10, 2025 at 12:00 PM
choregraphing my new skating program!!! hopefully my skills come in clutch enough to actually see improvement this time :3
October 6, 2025 at 9:59 PM
tbh it’s not the best-looking but tbh trying to embroider numbers on MINKY fabric w/o a hoop and when you haven’t done it in years deserves SOME grace. Also while trying to attach the fabric to felt (i mean felt is easy to sew on so that’s smthing)
i haven't sewn/embroidered for over four years (since my depressive episode brought many of my childhood hobbies down) and now i'm willingly doing it for a school project??

maybe i'm actually coming back to life
September 29, 2025 at 12:45 PM
i haven't sewn/embroidered for over four years (since my depressive episode brought many of my childhood hobbies down) and now i'm willingly doing it for a school project??

maybe i'm actually coming back to life
September 29, 2025 at 12:31 PM
me when i get so pent up over a single poll that i analyze the shit out of characters, their hobbies, their everything

(this is specific to yellow ava/m. my girl got screwed over twice and even tho she's not even my favorite she deserves sm better)
September 26, 2025 at 11:08 PM
Reposted by ghost! :D
she asked me how to be funny, but its not something you could teach

#ava #avm #alanbecker
September 24, 2025 at 5:45 PM