mood

and its the exact kind of like moral black & white language that like. has made my own mental health actively worse whenever ive been around it. very tumblr.

current + clouds a couple days ago

im trying to figure out if/how i want to "publish"/post this stuff. i do want to do that, making a website is just very daunting, since i dont really nnow what i would want it to even Look Like

if i try to chase perfection in my writing i will always be miserable doing it. but if i keep chasing the way i felt when i wrote 6k words of cyborg surgery/autopsy. ill never work a day in my life or whatever it is they say

also, i got a doll today

i decided to do a rlly fun thing with my oc setting where the fact that nobody but my two main guys is fleshed out is like Thematically Relevant. and whenever i try to make new guys for that setting it actively feels wrong

im currently working myself up in 100m weekly increments. the main difficulty atp is like. my turbo adhd (i literally get bored bc of the repetition but its too taxing to like let my mind wander)

up to 600m 👍 approaching 1km of swimming slowly

its sooooo nice... i spent some time just floating in the wave pool earlier which was also great

i literally love it so much