Maria ✨
@maria.cc
Started stuff like Staclar Carrier, Novecore and Staclar Registrar. she/her 🏳️⚧️
I just need to die already. I can't fight anymore. And really I no longer want to either. There's no point to life anymore. Everything sucks. Everything will always suck. It's not going to get better anymore.
April 25, 2025 at 2:06 PM
I just need to die already. I can't fight anymore. And really I no longer want to either. There's no point to life anymore. Everything sucks. Everything will always suck. It's not going to get better anymore.
My brain is so weird.
It goes from depressed to feeling okay to feeling amazing randomly, each lasting a few days (amazing is rare unfortunately).
I kinda want to know why that is.
It also has weirdly intense and unstable emotional responses but that's just BPD I'm being told.
It goes from depressed to feeling okay to feeling amazing randomly, each lasting a few days (amazing is rare unfortunately).
I kinda want to know why that is.
It also has weirdly intense and unstable emotional responses but that's just BPD I'm being told.
November 18, 2024 at 6:43 PM
My brain is so weird.
It goes from depressed to feeling okay to feeling amazing randomly, each lasting a few days (amazing is rare unfortunately).
I kinda want to know why that is.
It also has weirdly intense and unstable emotional responses but that's just BPD I'm being told.
It goes from depressed to feeling okay to feeling amazing randomly, each lasting a few days (amazing is rare unfortunately).
I kinda want to know why that is.
It also has weirdly intense and unstable emotional responses but that's just BPD I'm being told.
I have found myself aimlessly walking around in the dark in the middle of nowhere despite normally hating walks.
Should do this more often, makes me feel free.
I feel great today and have much more energy than usual, this is nice!
Should do this more often, makes me feel free.
I feel great today and have much more energy than usual, this is nice!
November 14, 2024 at 5:29 PM
I have found myself aimlessly walking around in the dark in the middle of nowhere despite normally hating walks.
Should do this more often, makes me feel free.
I feel great today and have much more energy than usual, this is nice!
Should do this more often, makes me feel free.
I feel great today and have much more energy than usual, this is nice!
I finally have a first appointment with a therapist tomorrow and I'm getting anxious.
What do I even talk about? Do I talk about issues (self harm etc) or causes (social stuff etc)?
Half the topics I don't even know how to talk about. And how do I prioritize stuff?
What do I even talk about? Do I talk about issues (self harm etc) or causes (social stuff etc)?
Half the topics I don't even know how to talk about. And how do I prioritize stuff?
November 10, 2024 at 7:30 PM
I finally have a first appointment with a therapist tomorrow and I'm getting anxious.
What do I even talk about? Do I talk about issues (self harm etc) or causes (social stuff etc)?
Half the topics I don't even know how to talk about. And how do I prioritize stuff?
What do I even talk about? Do I talk about issues (self harm etc) or causes (social stuff etc)?
Half the topics I don't even know how to talk about. And how do I prioritize stuff?
I miss her so much. She was an amazing friend.
Of course she's right to have cut contact, I was a toxic piece of shit. She gave me so many chances, too.
I just wish I could at least apologize to her, but I know that's never going to happen.
Of course she's right to have cut contact, I was a toxic piece of shit. She gave me so many chances, too.
I just wish I could at least apologize to her, but I know that's never going to happen.
November 6, 2024 at 6:25 PM
I miss her so much. She was an amazing friend.
Of course she's right to have cut contact, I was a toxic piece of shit. She gave me so many chances, too.
I just wish I could at least apologize to her, but I know that's never going to happen.
Of course she's right to have cut contact, I was a toxic piece of shit. She gave me so many chances, too.
I just wish I could at least apologize to her, but I know that's never going to happen.
I hate how at social stuff with too many people I basically have to drink because otherwise everything becomes very overwhelming due to auditory processing issues and ADHD
March 2, 2024 at 7:44 PM
I hate how at social stuff with too many people I basically have to drink because otherwise everything becomes very overwhelming due to auditory processing issues and ADHD