Bc we got a new manager and she's absolutely awful

I got banned from the dragon group bc I said in that case I hope they die young too then to save them a life of pain. Since that's what they said about my dragon and I get into trouble for saying it back to them.

It took me half of a year to save up to buy him. I made payments on him. I wanted a red monster beardie dragon bc I loved them. Someone said him dying this way will save him a life of pain because red monsters are fucked up sometimes. Well Denji was healthy, I just had him at the vet.

I'm sick of seeing people with sick dragons with mbd and rotten tails and clearly neglected that get to have theirs and love theirs and mine who I spared no expense on and took care of properly dies because of one mistake.

I loved Denji so much. He was my favorite pet besides my cats. I spent so much time bonding with him and feeding him roaches one by one and buying new things for his enclosure. I just want him back and I'm sick of seeing people that don't take care of their dragons getting to have theirs

I'm sick of everyone just saying "oh mine got out but I found it after a few days". Well it's been a few days and I have t found him. Then my friend said she lost her baby and she never found it and it probably died. I'm so glad everyone in my life is so helpful.

I told a close friend I was feeling suicidal over this and she said "that's insane actually it's just a lizard"

I have done literally everything everyone has said. He is a baby and is going to die without eating soon and it's my fucking fault and I just keep thinking if I didn't get him he'd be safe and happy with someone else instead right now and I killed him and he didn't deserve this

I'm sick of everyone saying it was an accident and it happens and to just look for him. I have barely slept in the last 2 days. All I've done is look for him in the same places over and over and over again. I'm frustrated and sick of no one doing anything to help

I'm going to go to the pet store and get some hanging light fixtures to hang his light out in the open and hope he tries to find a heat source bc it's so cold in the house. I'd like to leave bugs out but my cats will mess with them 🙄

I know it was an accident but I just don't want him to be hurt, or starve. He's still a baby and eats twice a day. It just feels so hopeless looking for him and I'm just frustrated.