I'm a space filler

I don't *do* anything, I'm not smart, I don't think there's anything to like about me outside of the occasional joke that lands
My family doesn't talk to me, my partner's family only includes me in things she's invited to, the only human contact I've had is when I volunteer with the mutual aid group

like. I don't think people think about me. Like a scuff mark on a wall and sometimes you see it and go "oh right that's there" and then you forget about it a few minutes later and time goes by and then you see it again and the cycle goes on
and I can't be upset because what is there to think about

It's been nonstop, daily for weeks too at this point and I'm so tired

I'm still so upset about this

The reason I've been hesitant to book a cleaning service 😭 like "what if the people i hired to clean my home see it dirty?"

Shit sucks so bad, he was such a nice dude

We need to finish it so baaad

Surprised my gf with a trip to see her family and ended up not getting home until 6am today i will be going into a temporary coma now