Year Of The Goat
Joe Cocker
The Skull
Tankard
Iron Maiden
Black Sabbath
Slayer

How I look and how others see or treat me is another story. Often the hardest part is the gap between inner mind and outer appearance. There is no reason needed to be trans. It is not reaction or rejection. It is simply there. 7/7

I want to be female. I see myself as female. Not being masculine was only a hint, not the explanation. I am not a man and not a female man either. I am just myself. 6/7

I do not shave, grow my hair, or wear earrings because I want to be a woman. I do it because I want it and love it. Those things express who I already am. They are not a facade or compensation. They are simply me. 5/7

It is a desire but also more than that. A necessity. A must. It is how I exist in the world and how I see it. Like breathing. Just there. It shows in clothes, colors, hobbies, movement, gestures, views and much more. 4/7

The real reason is something else entirely. It is the inner feeling of who I am. Like how a cis person simply knows they are straight or not. It is not a theory or a conclusion. It is an inner truth. 3/7

Yes, I think about masculine toxicity. Yes, I do not want to be like many masculine people. But that is not the core of it. That is not what explains who I am. 2/7

I know it's a snapshot and there are other times.

… „gef1ckt werden“? Dachte, man muss selbst aktiv werden?

That’s my job and what could I say, it’s all true 😜

Heute versuche ich immer ein bisschen besser zu sein als gestern, vergebe mir aber, wenn es nicht klappt. Morgen kann ich es wieder versuchen.

Some funny images in my head. This would often end up in some “self-care”. Many would not even start their engines. The roads would be clear. The general mood would be much calmer and more satisfying. Watching others start would be inspiring…