Transition is a practice of self-abolition, and it demonstrates that abolition involves both destroying/ending and building/creating in a way that threatens all ideologies of natural right, of hierarchy and power with a simple gesture of desire and self-knowledge

oh yeah there was a lot of boys club that didn't like the light that was shown on the lack of diversity, equity, and inclusion in the booking
maybe if i had been gentler or more sensitive in my communication i would have got booked more (lol that's a sexist cope no matter which way you slice it)

the scenes and i have gone thru a lot of transition since then. maybe it was always there it just needed to actualize? to get out of our own way? it is hard to say. anyway im listening to the solo and collab set from Everdark Samhain party (wasn't there, but my speakers were) and it is fresh as hell

more on why i think the Forced Meme is the single most useful concept for analyzing media in 2025:

i understand the physics of low and loud in my bones. carrying low and loud is part of how i got hurt (back in sub Mistress era)
later i learned there was an elevator, so why exactly were we carrying boxes up the stairs?
i am at peace with what i can and can't do.
i want to play on a rig that Can!

my dream is one order of magnitude bigger than my full deployment.
war volume requires truckpacks.
also my turntables are knockoffs... they are good enough for bedroom but would not meet anyone's rider.
im just dreaming of being treated as nice as i used to help treat on bigsound productions.