So I stopped caring about numbers cuz I'll never get them. I stopped caring about praise cuz it all sounds superficial.

my best arts, are the horrible ones I make when I'm at my lowest. Those make me happy but people never like them. They don't like it cuz its not about them or its shit.

That ultimately, be it cuz of AI threatening jobs, shitty clients that try to pinch every penny out of you and guilt trip your ass, or just plain old abuse and manipulation, all of which I have experienced.

Social Media, and its inhabitants have shown me and largely proven to me, that I am not worth shit, that my only worth is making shit for others so they can virtue signal and boost themselves.
I speak for myself, but artists I've noticed always end up on the short end of the deal.