Throw rocks at transphobes ^_^ kill racists ^_^

I know that's self destructive but I don't fucking know. I can't do anything to make people stop and they won't even let me formulate my thoughts to break apart their bigotry. I'm so fucking tired of having to prove I am not a fucking predator every goddamn day.

- outside of my partner. I'm only staying alive for them. I don't fucking know. I hate the world so fucking much. I hate how racist everyone is. I hate how homophobic everyone is. I hate how transphobic everyone is. I think I need to break up with my partner so I can kill myself in peace.

I can't do anything consistently. I get constant mental blocks and I just can't do it. My body won't let me. Something is deeply wrong with me and everyone can see it and theyre all fucking pitying me. I'd kill myself if I didn't have my partner. My cat is dead and now I have no reason to live -

I think i should starve myself to get skinny but it hurts so much. I can't work out to get skinny cause people will see me or I'll do it wrong. I can't do it consistently. I've tried so fucking much and it never did anything. I don't want drugs to do it cause then everyone will know I failed.

I also kinda just wanna be an avatar that exists outside of being. I hate being in physical spaces. Too many noises and things that are evil and angry. People are rude and mean. I'm constantly afraid of being hate crimed or bullied. I'd rather just be a phantom that can observe and not be observed.

I think really what it is, is that my form should not be a reflection of my surroundings. If I am skinny, it's because I want to be skinny, not because I starve myself. If I'm fat, it's purely an aesthetic choice and not because I hate working out. If I have muscles, it's still only aesthetic.

I got the first four, what are the others?