it's too much of a burden to care for me or make me anything important in someone's life. I'm just a cool distraction for a few minutes and then I'm worthless again

venting about it is why the people who followed me on twitter started to hate me, i wish i could just get it together

i feel stupid. and alone. abandoned. like im the problem. like no one will ever love me. like my only use is being used by people and the second i try to be a person everything falls apart. but i know that at the end of the day nothing will change by venting abt it

it makes me wonder if anyone likes me at all. because in the moment I needed the most support i got it more from people that would be considered strangers or acquaintances rather than my "best friends"

maybe i need to play both of these sooner rather than later

I sit patiently and wait for u to tell me everything

u can add my discord if u want, its the same as my twitter

I deactivated bc my mental health is ded

maybe i should just give up and be a hermit that never talks to anyone and loses her mind

and it's not like I can blame people for that. I'm insufferable rn. I've never been this bad. but I just need to be supported and I don't have that anymore. I just wanna be better but my emotions are so much that I need to get them out before I explode

I just feel like everyone hates me or is disappointed in me and wants nothing to do with me and it sucks bc I'm trying so hard but I don't feel like I have any support from any direction most of the time and I'm just. I don't wanna be alone rn. but I'm impossible to get along with rn I guess

I don't wanna talk abt it more on twitter bc I know everyone there hates me bc of how much I talk abt my emotions lately but I just feel so lost like I know I'm in a bad spot and I'm not the best friend right now but im trying my best and if i do something wrong I'd like to know

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THIS IMAGE MAKES ME CRY FROM LAUFHING

IM SO CONSIDERING IT i played sophie before and it confused me a lot but i pushed through for the lesbians.... sophie is so trans coded too shes peak transfem... but my dnd dm has played ryza and he told me ryza is peak dumbass lesbian LMAO

i bought ryza 1 ages ago and keep considering going to it after spideyman........

im not really into talking abt it bc I already did that as a tween i dont want anyone to talk to me just because I'm trans to me that's as bad as hating me just bc I'm trans and im not t4t I love all women
idk i just care so little for the microlabeling im a woman that likes other woman that's that

maybe it's bc I came out at 13 and lived pretty much my entire life accepting my own identity but like I'm just a girl we don't need to get too into detail abt it

where are all of the early 20s girls at I only see 16 year olds and then 30 year olds