Like this is all ridiculous but this has been. a main way of getting at least some time with my eyes shut.
I can be excited by most things and I don't want people to interact with me unless its good for them too even in my imagining

But I haven't been able to imagine because I would want to connect with other beings And I guess I struggle to see myself and how I interact and my brain is like I don't know how they would react and I don't want to imagine fictional people being my friend in case they wouldn't want to

At the moment I have been struggling to imagine a future that is good. That has been often how I get to sleep, making friends with star trek or owl house or kipo folk or space travel or a kind world.

UK Legal folk
Questions:
-can i challenge or add to the inquest
-why were none of us patients contacted to give a statement
-can i request the inquest
-why did the nhs inquiry not consult or get input from us patients
-can/ should i try and do anything with this

happened 2013, inquest was 2015

I have had some family stuff and trauma processing that has meant i am processing this shit for the first time.

I have no thoughts on whether this is a good idea or not but why don't people use second hand seatbelts as like belts or carabiniers or other buckles?

Like separately I would just like to design myself an app that has all messages from people 121 to me, a another with group chats I need to check, another with group chats I like but often get lost in

But also kendra deserved so much better than shira

No pun intended for a cartoon show that is literally a 2D character :P

Her sharing stories of me being autistic as a kid, like insisting on wearing my school shoes to the primary school disco dispute her prodding (which hadn't remembered),

or a teen trying 2 be cool @school by wearing Hollister (bright orange hoodie, teal shirt, bright pink docs, spotty red trousers)

I had come to accept she would never accept me being autistic as a way of finding out why I am so specific and struggle with social and life. But she did, and like doesn't think I am making it up.
I really internalised that in a way I knew but also didn't.

Like idk. I'm not just stubborn and difficult and trying to be a pain, I'm different and there are others like me who previously we just thought of a 'peculiar' or 'unique' or 'just them being difficult or rude'

I guess her seeing and accepting my being autistic as ME including my weirdness and difficult experiences by also my passions and understanding and talking about adults around me growing up as autistic just never diagnosed is so weird.
I feel a lil seen by her in a way I thought she couldn't