And i guess I just miss the friend i made in her. I miss you mom. I know she was proud of me. And that's all I wanted my entire life. Was for us to be okay, and for her to love/respect me. Which in the end I think she did.

My mom was a complicated woman who had a complicated past. She made a lot of bad decisions that affected me.

But in the end, we got along.
We didn't fight anymore. And it became easier to love her. I miss our phone calls, and I miss nerding out with her and showing her new stuff.

She was better to me when we could fully understand each other. And I went through extensive therapy to learn how to converse with people better/handle situations better. I did a lot of work. Also being medicated helps with my trauma.

I bet my friends wonder why I feel this way. And tbh I'm working it out myself. I am trying to remember the good aspect of her. And how our relationship was in these last years and not thinking about my entire life. Which is a weird thing to say. But it's the truth.

Aww thank you!

Our theater was singing very lowly. I was trying to encourage people to sing louder lol. Saw people dressed as Hamilton lol. It was a good time.

🥰🥰🥰 exciting times!

Excuse me!? 👀