(Also I miss blogging my own thoughts 😅 Should I probably pick up that hobby back again?)

No, I'm not ending this on a grey note. I know my answer, even though sometimes I may forget about it...in rough storms and during rough times.

It's truly a test of self-convinction.

But... I'm.. slowly gradually coming to terms with it. I hope so my steps will eventually take me there.

Bcuz by then, by the time you've tried to become everything, being all that you can, you wouldn't even know what's your own self. What do you like? What are your core values? Without these...fronts, who are you truly are by the roots?

...Nothing. Just an empty husk, a projection of others' light.

...Maybe I should probably make an alt account at this point to rant, but... I'm...too lazy to even engage.

I've reached to a stage that I barely even care what others think of me anymore that I just become whatever I feel whenever I want to.
It's nice to dgaf, but still its hard to self-reflect-

Once again, I'm not being harsh, just my concerns.

I love the overall reception from the festival so much, but 100% more happy if its amended to Eid/Raya instead.

It'll save us all the Muslim creators out there from the troubles and struggles that we have in showcasing the indie games from devs.

Apart from that, thank you so much for the opportunities & organizing the Festival, @seagamethetic.bsky.social & I wish to thank all the game devs that have reached me out on X & also through email too.

Wish I could try out all the games so bad. Really.

That's how I love games so much.

Don't worry about it being 'late' compared to Ramadhan, Raya/Eid season is a lot more festive compared to that. And for us Malaysians, some of us Muslims celebrate it for month, so it can be as long as one month just like the Days of Ramadan Festival. So yes, that's my two cents of concerns.

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If the Steam Festival is done on Raya season, it'll be appealing for those that couldn't go back home to relatives, as the games become a sign of comfort for us to explore, keep company and choose from ( + Muslim creators can eat, hydrate = more energy, more commentary for streams+feedbacks)
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During Raya season, although most of us Muslim creators will be offline to visit relatives, but once we've done, we can go back to stream all sorts of games and our work schedule will return to normal. So, more opportunities to stream more games from game devs + showcase their games well
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Fyi, I meant no harm to the organizers nor the game devs that have reached me out during Days of Ramadhan occasion. This is just my concerns if this Festival continues on for the next year. BUT, I would suggest, please do it on Raya season instead of Ramadhan season, there's more benefits on that:

I'm not one to comment, because every creator that takes part in the Days of Ramadhan Festival are all in their own volition. Still, for us Muslims, we just can't push ourselves to explore more games because we need the nights in Ramadhan to do acts of worship and pray too. It's just sad.
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How does it take our time off from our prayers? Muslims have terawih prayers, and it can ONLY be performed during the nights of Ramadhan. There's no terawih on other months, and these prayers may stretch from 2-20 sets of Solats in time frame. So, for pious Muslims, they stay up all night praying.

If other cultures have a time of prayers and worship left alone, why can't ours? So technically, to most Muslims in a way, it kind of takes our time off from letting us to pray peacefully. Don't get me started on Raya preparations. Imagine cleaning your WHOLE house WHILE you are fasting.

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