Theyre just... Way too cool for me.

++I just don't understand why she would let it happen, when she knows what it feels like. She recognizes that feeling like it was yesterday. A feeling we both understand all too well and probably will until we die.

I hate that I understand her and she understands that affected piece of me.

++.. I used to blame her for all of it. I don't understand why my dad and his friends got away with it, why my cousin got away with it, why my moms bf got away with it or when my mom got away with it.
She tried to pray it away, but nobody saved me, nobody saved her, nobody saved her mom. ++

++ but the kicker in all of this, is each time, my great grandma knew that was happening to my grandmother, she was just too scared to do something about it, especially in the 1960s..and my grandmother knew it was happening to me, but she was scared I'd fall into the system, so she did nothing++

+++ TW / SA&CSA
We were talking about both of our experiences with being SA'd and about what has helped her move forward. And her feelings of filth and guilt, it felt disgustingly familiar to how I felt as a kid. Like it's just this sick curse, because my great grandma went through that as well..++

++ I also plan on beading soon!!
Ever since I started lessons with my aunties and other reconnecting friends, I've felt a lot more confident about it.

I wish I could show him off to my friends and family but he is incredibly protective ✊😔 and very anxious.

You toooo!! 💫