Ellembee
@lmbillos.bsky.social
Despite everything, I exist. 🎨 😷 🐻 🥄
Generative AI is theft. 🚫
Help me eat! https://linktr.ee/lmbillustration
Generative AI is theft. 🚫
Help me eat! https://linktr.ee/lmbillustration
I’ve only watched two holiday movies so far: Violent Night and Ron Howard’s Grinch flick. (There were at least 2 attempts at other media but my body just said “nope”.)
The first one is cathartic & helps me accept the inevitable. The second one is just…idk. The Tylenol in my veins demanded it!
The first one is cathartic & helps me accept the inevitable. The second one is just…idk. The Tylenol in my veins demanded it!
December 25, 2025 at 4:01 AM
I’ve only watched two holiday movies so far: Violent Night and Ron Howard’s Grinch flick. (There were at least 2 attempts at other media but my body just said “nope”.)
The first one is cathartic & helps me accept the inevitable. The second one is just…idk. The Tylenol in my veins demanded it!
The first one is cathartic & helps me accept the inevitable. The second one is just…idk. The Tylenol in my veins demanded it!
I do not want to be highly sensitive anymore.
December 22, 2025 at 7:30 PM
I do not want to be highly sensitive anymore.
Fam dropped off gifts today—which was the ideal plan—and yet I had to cover them all with a sheet because having them in view is stressing me out. 🫣
No hate to y’all who love xmas; I consider myself a reasonable grinch. I’d just rather skip the whole thing. 🫠
A messy joco about holiday feels.
No hate to y’all who love xmas; I consider myself a reasonable grinch. I’d just rather skip the whole thing. 🫠
A messy joco about holiday feels.
December 20, 2025 at 4:03 PM
Fam dropped off gifts today—which was the ideal plan—and yet I had to cover them all with a sheet because having them in view is stressing me out. 🫣
No hate to y’all who love xmas; I consider myself a reasonable grinch. I’d just rather skip the whole thing. 🫠
A messy joco about holiday feels.
No hate to y’all who love xmas; I consider myself a reasonable grinch. I’d just rather skip the whole thing. 🫠
A messy joco about holiday feels.
I genuinely WANT to share my art here more frequently, and I also genuinely DON’T, because this platform makes blocking/removing followers (with immoral intent of art theft via Eh Eye) impossible. I’ll keep trying to update. But you’re gonna get the stuff that’s watermarked to hell. 🤷
December 20, 2025 at 3:58 PM
I genuinely WANT to share my art here more frequently, and I also genuinely DON’T, because this platform makes blocking/removing followers (with immoral intent of art theft via Eh Eye) impossible. I’ll keep trying to update. But you’re gonna get the stuff that’s watermarked to hell. 🤷
Messy joco (journal comic) about social anxiety and how I suck at being human, lol.
December 20, 2025 at 3:55 PM
Messy joco (journal comic) about social anxiety and how I suck at being human, lol.
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I just saw someone yell “they’re just using it to generate ideas!”
And
I hate to say it
But if you work in the ART DEPARTMENT and you need a death machine stuffed with your colleagues’ work to give you ideas
Quit.
And
I hate to say it
But if you work in the ART DEPARTMENT and you need a death machine stuffed with your colleagues’ work to give you ideas
Quit.
December 20, 2025 at 2:44 AM
I just saw someone yell “they’re just using it to generate ideas!”
And
I hate to say it
But if you work in the ART DEPARTMENT and you need a death machine stuffed with your colleagues’ work to give you ideas
Quit.
And
I hate to say it
But if you work in the ART DEPARTMENT and you need a death machine stuffed with your colleagues’ work to give you ideas
Quit.
Quinoa tastes funky. The texture reminds me a bit of grits, which I also do not love. The *things I do* for my nutritionist.
December 7, 2025 at 11:07 PM
Quinoa tastes funky. The texture reminds me a bit of grits, which I also do not love. The *things I do* for my nutritionist.
Me: made a killing while dashing today. Hungry people make it rain. 🤑
My body: okay but can you NOT dash for 6 hours next time?? 💀
Me: I’M DOING THIS FOR *YOU*, DAMMIT. 😭
My body: okay but can you NOT dash for 6 hours next time?? 💀
Me: I’M DOING THIS FOR *YOU*, DAMMIT. 😭
December 7, 2025 at 11:05 PM
Me: made a killing while dashing today. Hungry people make it rain. 🤑
My body: okay but can you NOT dash for 6 hours next time?? 💀
Me: I’M DOING THIS FOR *YOU*, DAMMIT. 😭
My body: okay but can you NOT dash for 6 hours next time?? 💀
Me: I’M DOING THIS FOR *YOU*, DAMMIT. 😭
How do you cope as a self-identified ND suffering from internalized ableism when you have a grade A meltdown because this is deeply unsustainable and I would rather do a violins on myself than let anyone see me like this.
Related: here’s a painting I did about Rejection Sensitivr Dysphoria.
Related: here’s a painting I did about Rejection Sensitivr Dysphoria.
October 16, 2025 at 8:03 PM
How do you cope as a self-identified ND suffering from internalized ableism when you have a grade A meltdown because this is deeply unsustainable and I would rather do a violins on myself than let anyone see me like this.
Related: here’s a painting I did about Rejection Sensitivr Dysphoria.
Related: here’s a painting I did about Rejection Sensitivr Dysphoria.
Good info here.
ICE reactivated its contract with spyware manufacturer Paragon Solutions. You can read more about it here, but what does that mean for using encrypted chat apps like Signal? 🧵(1/8)
EFF Statement on ICE Use of Paragon Solutions Malware
This statement can be attributed to EFF Senior Staff Technologist Cooper QuintinIt was recently reported by Jack Poulson on Substack that ICE has reactivated its 2 million dollar contract with Paragon...
www.eff.org
September 14, 2025 at 12:15 AM
Good info here.
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Hey, if you need a seed company that isn’t fash, try:
trueloveseeds.com
(Found them because I went looking for aleppo peppers.)
trueloveseeds.com
(Found them because I went looking for aleppo peppers.)
Truelove Seeds - Vegetable, Herb, and Flower Seeds
Truelove Seeds is a farm-based seed company offering culturally important and open pollinated vegetable, herb, and flower seeds. Our seeds are grown by more than 20 small-scale urban and rural farmers...
trueloveseeds.com
September 3, 2025 at 7:43 PM
Hey, if you need a seed company that isn’t fash, try:
trueloveseeds.com
(Found them because I went looking for aleppo peppers.)
trueloveseeds.com
(Found them because I went looking for aleppo peppers.)
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Gotta love how every time a chronically ill person thinks 'huh, I'm doing alright and managing to work more hours than I used to' we get one-two punched by all our disabilities at once for two+ days to make sure we don't get too big-headed about our capacity. 😑
September 2, 2025 at 8:22 PM
Gotta love how every time a chronically ill person thinks 'huh, I'm doing alright and managing to work more hours than I used to' we get one-two punched by all our disabilities at once for two+ days to make sure we don't get too big-headed about our capacity. 😑
I have STICKERS!! They’re really real! Please acquire some to help fund P B S as well as my own life!! Media literacy and facts are important! I can’t stop yelling!
September 2, 2025 at 7:15 PM
I have STICKERS!! They’re really real! Please acquire some to help fund P B S as well as my own life!! Media literacy and facts are important! I can’t stop yelling!
I haven’t been to the mall in a meaningful way in like 7 yrs, so of course I borrowed tomorrow’s spoons by literally running thru it looking for a customer’s order at something called “Freakin Sweet Jars.” Like WHAT is going on in there?!
Kudos for finally changing the mall name back to OG, though.
Kudos for finally changing the mall name back to OG, though.
August 17, 2025 at 2:00 AM
I haven’t been to the mall in a meaningful way in like 7 yrs, so of course I borrowed tomorrow’s spoons by literally running thru it looking for a customer’s order at something called “Freakin Sweet Jars.” Like WHAT is going on in there?!
Kudos for finally changing the mall name back to OG, though.
Kudos for finally changing the mall name back to OG, though.
When “adagio for strings” comes on the classical playlist you found online and you gotta nope tf out of it and skip to the next. 🫠
Listen: I adore that song, but I’ve been through enough this year.
Listen: I adore that song, but I’ve been through enough this year.
August 14, 2025 at 4:29 PM
When “adagio for strings” comes on the classical playlist you found online and you gotta nope tf out of it and skip to the next. 🫠
Listen: I adore that song, but I’ve been through enough this year.
Listen: I adore that song, but I’ve been through enough this year.
That glazed look in my eyes when a doctor isn’t listening and I haven’t the energy to explain myself a 10th time so I just shut down and nod.
squidward from spongebob wearing a helmet rides a bike
ALT: squidward from spongebob wearing a helmet rides a bike
media.tenor.com
July 24, 2025 at 8:13 PM
That glazed look in my eyes when a doctor isn’t listening and I haven’t the energy to explain myself a 10th time so I just shut down and nod.
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So many people I know in the US are emotionally dysregulated (politically, how could you not be?) and their relationships are paying the price.
It’s tough to watch so many of us take it out on each other, whether with friends, family, neighbors, coworkers, public figures, comment sections.
It’s tough to watch so many of us take it out on each other, whether with friends, family, neighbors, coworkers, public figures, comment sections.
July 21, 2025 at 7:18 PM
So many people I know in the US are emotionally dysregulated (politically, how could you not be?) and their relationships are paying the price.
It’s tough to watch so many of us take it out on each other, whether with friends, family, neighbors, coworkers, public figures, comment sections.
It’s tough to watch so many of us take it out on each other, whether with friends, family, neighbors, coworkers, public figures, comment sections.
The deeper I get into perimenopause, the more I relate to ghost Viola from “The Haunting of Bly Manor.”
☑️ can’t sleep
☑️ stuck at home (SSDD)
☑️ prone to unchecked rage
☑️ feeling dead in memory to those who moved on from the panny 🪦
☑️loves children
☑️ can’t sleep
☑️ stuck at home (SSDD)
☑️ prone to unchecked rage
☑️ feeling dead in memory to those who moved on from the panny 🪦
☑️loves children
July 20, 2025 at 7:40 PM
The deeper I get into perimenopause, the more I relate to ghost Viola from “The Haunting of Bly Manor.”
☑️ can’t sleep
☑️ stuck at home (SSDD)
☑️ prone to unchecked rage
☑️ feeling dead in memory to those who moved on from the panny 🪦
☑️loves children
☑️ can’t sleep
☑️ stuck at home (SSDD)
☑️ prone to unchecked rage
☑️ feeling dead in memory to those who moved on from the panny 🪦
☑️loves children
I believe I have tennis elbow. Been pouring a lot of feelings into uke lately and that might have bit me in the ass. (A decade ago I threw out my shoulder for a whole day after throwing paint so I guess this isn’t new lol.)
How do y’all treat this from home? (I’m poor.)
How do y’all treat this from home? (I’m poor.)
June 28, 2025 at 2:15 PM
I believe I have tennis elbow. Been pouring a lot of feelings into uke lately and that might have bit me in the ass. (A decade ago I threw out my shoulder for a whole day after throwing paint so I guess this isn’t new lol.)
How do y’all treat this from home? (I’m poor.)
How do y’all treat this from home? (I’m poor.)
Teaching kids has me doing homework, as well. I’m reading the first Dav Pilkey book that wasn’t on a waitlist from Libby. I knew these books were popular when I worked at a children’s toy store, but now I fully understand the appeal. We could never keep new ones on the shelves!
June 15, 2025 at 8:13 PM
Teaching kids has me doing homework, as well. I’m reading the first Dav Pilkey book that wasn’t on a waitlist from Libby. I knew these books were popular when I worked at a children’s toy store, but now I fully understand the appeal. We could never keep new ones on the shelves!
Did a tiny virtual art class for two littles today. (Success btw!) I’ve taught kids before, though never over zoom, but honestly it was aces. We all learned things.
I miss interacting w/ kids, & I think I like teaching. I feel like when I’m not panicking over *gestures* …I should follow that cue.
I miss interacting w/ kids, & I think I like teaching. I feel like when I’m not panicking over *gestures* …I should follow that cue.
June 13, 2025 at 11:25 PM
Did a tiny virtual art class for two littles today. (Success btw!) I’ve taught kids before, though never over zoom, but honestly it was aces. We all learned things.
I miss interacting w/ kids, & I think I like teaching. I feel like when I’m not panicking over *gestures* …I should follow that cue.
I miss interacting w/ kids, & I think I like teaching. I feel like when I’m not panicking over *gestures* …I should follow that cue.
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Rewatching the amazing One Piece live-action series, and wondering how tf Roronoa Zoro carries THREE swords on one hip. The guy’s back pain must be IMMENSE, I can barely stand my smart phone in my back pocket for more than an hour lmao. Get this man a chiropractor.
May 24, 2025 at 8:36 PM
Rewatching the amazing One Piece live-action series, and wondering how tf Roronoa Zoro carries THREE swords on one hip. The guy’s back pain must be IMMENSE, I can barely stand my smart phone in my back pocket for more than an hour lmao. Get this man a chiropractor.
Extending this through August at least lol, I am barely hanging on.
New journal comic from my Patreon to tempt y’all into throwing me just one measly dollar a month. Please help I am going to starve lmao. #art #journalcomic
www.patreon.com/LMBillos?utm...
www.patreon.com/LMBillos?utm...
May 24, 2025 at 6:01 PM
Extending this through August at least lol, I am barely hanging on.
You know you’re getting some of your art groove back when you laugh at your own comics.
Damn, that feels good.
Damn, that feels good.
May 21, 2025 at 7:32 PM
You know you’re getting some of your art groove back when you laugh at your own comics.
Damn, that feels good.
Damn, that feels good.