lixi ♡ SHedsky
@llawfully.bsky.social
♡ edsky / shsky ♡
a guy -> he/xe/void
cbmi 18.0
ugbmi 10.2
i block a lot
old enough to be disordered for 7+ yrs
tw for suicide/sh/ed/trauma/csa
backup -> @haribobear.bsky.social
a guy -> he/xe/void
cbmi 18.0
ugbmi 10.2
i block a lot
old enough to be disordered for 7+ yrs
tw for suicide/sh/ed/trauma/csa
backup -> @haribobear.bsky.social
im so mean and so pathetic
my friend is going through something and im fuckinh jealous because my boyfriend is helping them but he never helped me like that and im so tired and hurt and sad but nobody CARES
my friend is going through something and im fuckinh jealous because my boyfriend is helping them but he never helped me like that and im so tired and hurt and sad but nobody CARES
November 7, 2025 at 4:41 PM
im so mean and so pathetic
my friend is going through something and im fuckinh jealous because my boyfriend is helping them but he never helped me like that and im so tired and hurt and sad but nobody CARES
my friend is going through something and im fuckinh jealous because my boyfriend is helping them but he never helped me like that and im so tired and hurt and sad but nobody CARES
time to lose weight until my boyfriend gets concerned again!!
November 1, 2025 at 11:11 PM
time to lose weight until my boyfriend gets concerned again!!
i love lying
oh yeah im sober
yeah im clean
yeah i stopped smoking
nah caffeine is just cuz ive been having some late nights
yeah ive been getting healthy actually
oh yeah im sober
yeah im clean
yeah i stopped smoking
nah caffeine is just cuz ive been having some late nights
yeah ive been getting healthy actually
November 1, 2025 at 11:11 PM
i love lying
oh yeah im sober
yeah im clean
yeah i stopped smoking
nah caffeine is just cuz ive been having some late nights
yeah ive been getting healthy actually
oh yeah im sober
yeah im clean
yeah i stopped smoking
nah caffeine is just cuz ive been having some late nights
yeah ive been getting healthy actually
im
probably going to start tracking calories in here or a notes app bc i cant stick to apps for some reason
probably going to start tracking calories in here or a notes app bc i cant stick to apps for some reason
November 1, 2025 at 11:07 PM
im
probably going to start tracking calories in here or a notes app bc i cant stick to apps for some reason
probably going to start tracking calories in here or a notes app bc i cant stick to apps for some reason
okay we r so back
November 1, 2025 at 11:07 PM
okay we r so back
locking in; an accountability thread
October 2, 2025 at 5:56 PM
locking in; an accountability thread
Reposted by lixi ♡ SHedsky
nobody who fully knows my trauma will ever see me as human
January 28, 2025 at 9:42 PM
nobody who fully knows my trauma will ever see me as human
Reposted by lixi ♡ SHedsky
i hate myself so fucking bad i died in that bed in that cafe on that couch in that bathroom in that house in his hands theres nothing in me that remains he shouldve fucking killed me
January 28, 2025 at 10:05 PM
i hate myself so fucking bad i died in that bed in that cafe on that couch in that bathroom in that house in his hands theres nothing in me that remains he shouldve fucking killed me
Reposted by lixi ♡ SHedsky
forcing myself to ignore my survival instincts until i slowly erase them because thats a normal thing to want and need
February 9, 2025 at 11:57 PM
forcing myself to ignore my survival instincts until i slowly erase them because thats a normal thing to want and need
Reposted by lixi ♡ SHedsky
Back up account for @llawfully.bsky.social in case I get nuked <3
December 27, 2024 at 10:16 PM
Back up account for @llawfully.bsky.social in case I get nuked <3
// bodycheck
still so fucking fat, jesus CHRIST
still so fucking fat, jesus CHRIST
July 31, 2025 at 12:36 PM
// bodycheck
still so fucking fat, jesus CHRIST
still so fucking fat, jesus CHRIST
Accountability thread <333
July 31, 2025 at 12:30 PM
Accountability thread <333
ive had lile 0 appetite all day
this fast wasnt even tough
like deadass
0 appetite
i drank tea
i rhink it helped that i was walking around all day w my friend who also ddinr get food so i wasnr tempted
this fast wasnt even tough
like deadass
0 appetite
i drank tea
i rhink it helped that i was walking around all day w my friend who also ddinr get food so i wasnr tempted
July 30, 2025 at 11:36 PM
ive had lile 0 appetite all day
this fast wasnt even tough
like deadass
0 appetite
i drank tea
i rhink it helped that i was walking around all day w my friend who also ddinr get food so i wasnr tempted
this fast wasnt even tough
like deadass
0 appetite
i drank tea
i rhink it helped that i was walking around all day w my friend who also ddinr get food so i wasnr tempted
couldnt fast yesterfay so im fasting today <33
July 30, 2025 at 12:23 PM
couldnt fast yesterfay so im fasting today <33
i cant get myself to actually write stories so ive been writing letters about how i feel and i feel SICK
i hate being in touch w my emotions
i just like being numb
this was a stupid idea
i hate being in touch w my emotions
i just like being numb
this was a stupid idea
July 28, 2025 at 2:18 AM
i cant get myself to actually write stories so ive been writing letters about how i feel and i feel SICK
i hate being in touch w my emotions
i just like being numb
this was a stupid idea
i hate being in touch w my emotions
i just like being numb
this was a stupid idea
writing long fucking letters about making someone love a lie and then continuing to make someone love a lie
i am truly a horrible person
i am truly a horrible person
July 28, 2025 at 2:18 AM
writing long fucking letters about making someone love a lie and then continuing to make someone love a lie
i am truly a horrible person
i am truly a horrible person
i feel like i am predestined to love the men who leave me
July 28, 2025 at 12:53 AM
i feel like i am predestined to love the men who leave me
i have insane abandonment issues
July 28, 2025 at 12:53 AM
i have insane abandonment issues
istg i keep losing and gaining the same 5kg
i get down to 48kg, i gain up to 53kg, i get down to 48kg, i gain up to 53kg, rinse and repeat
i am so sick of this
i got down to 44kg one time and i need to get back there, this is sickening
i get down to 48kg, i gain up to 53kg, i get down to 48kg, i gain up to 53kg, rinse and repeat
i am so sick of this
i got down to 44kg one time and i need to get back there, this is sickening
July 27, 2025 at 11:18 PM
istg i keep losing and gaining the same 5kg
i get down to 48kg, i gain up to 53kg, i get down to 48kg, i gain up to 53kg, rinse and repeat
i am so sick of this
i got down to 44kg one time and i need to get back there, this is sickening
i get down to 48kg, i gain up to 53kg, i get down to 48kg, i gain up to 53kg, rinse and repeat
i am so sick of this
i got down to 44kg one time and i need to get back there, this is sickening
had minimelts today and i was in HEAVENNNNNNNN
i havent had those in YEARS
100000/10
i havent had those in YEARS
100000/10
July 27, 2025 at 12:16 AM
had minimelts today and i was in HEAVENNNNNNNN
i havent had those in YEARS
100000/10
i havent had those in YEARS
100000/10
need need neeeed to lose my period again
the dysphoria is fucking killing me
motivation to restrict harder i guess
the dysphoria is fucking killing me
motivation to restrict harder i guess
July 24, 2025 at 10:57 PM
need need neeeed to lose my period again
the dysphoria is fucking killing me
motivation to restrict harder i guess
the dysphoria is fucking killing me
motivation to restrict harder i guess
im lowkey excited to go back, I want my fucking routineeee
like
consistent wake up time? consistent activities daily? knowing what will happen next? PLEASE
like, i love my free time, and getting enough sleep
but god this unpredictability is KILLING ME
like
consistent wake up time? consistent activities daily? knowing what will happen next? PLEASE
like, i love my free time, and getting enough sleep
but god this unpredictability is KILLING ME
July 24, 2025 at 10:55 PM
im lowkey excited to go back, I want my fucking routineeee
like
consistent wake up time? consistent activities daily? knowing what will happen next? PLEASE
like, i love my free time, and getting enough sleep
but god this unpredictability is KILLING ME
like
consistent wake up time? consistent activities daily? knowing what will happen next? PLEASE
like, i love my free time, and getting enough sleep
but god this unpredictability is KILLING ME