i am fine with the infodump but we are fighting over the dr pepper

i need interaction bait i gotta find the peeps that like me over there on here but nobody else is making the move so im still stuck on that hell app

i unironically am just more active on twitter because while theyre botted theres still some interaction over there and im hopelessly addicted to the feeling of being seen

I dont want to talk about it much more so i will be finally and fully moving on from here

i just wanted to be seen at least slightly positive. this whole thing has made me feel like a horrible person and i dont want that to be all you think of me. i want to be a person, i know i fucked up, i know knowing doesnt change anything. im sorry

im sorry. i didnt mean for everything to be public, i wanted a seperate bit to mention it more discreetly in hopes that showing that I understood would make me feel not as bad. I was hoping to be seen at least slightly positive in making my efforts to improve known. i dont mean to be making excuses

as for the one i put in yours, i truly tried to make it as formal, understanding and respectful as possible. I understand that it may not have came off that way, and I am trying to move on from this whole situation. again, i am sorry.

I mean i wasted it in i wrote one right away not thinking of how to articulate my apology. that morning i wasn't thinking of what and how i had done wrong but just panicked and wanted to be let back in. I wanted to make a more proper apology in the form of the note.

i get it, but its still hurt being seen as a monster. i just want to be more than a bad memory. why is that so bad?

i dont know why it is i do the things i do. I want to try and mend the bond but I also dont want to push too far and evade the ban with alts, i dont want to constantly beg and ask outside people to go in and beg for me. i both want to respect the ban but also go back to how things were.

im sorry i'm causing so much.

I made this post as it was a spot where i wasn't already blocked or removed. I wasted my appeal attempt in emeralds chat the morning i found out, so i couldnt post a more rational thing there either. I'm trying to move on, I figured this would be a step, saying my grievances and goodbyes.