it still hurts to know that I couldn't keep something that was making me happy. but I'm happy that from what I know, she's doing well and is happy without me. I'm gonna fully move on and do my best to just be me. Live my life the way that I want to.

won't throw shade at her but I'll vent a bit, the most serious relationship of my life going on 11 months ended in november. The past month has legitimately been a hell of anger, hurt, and severe lack of self-care, and a lot of it still lingers. I'm still hurting, but I'm working through it. Slowly.