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Vanni|| 🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈 || He / Him || minors, anti DNI 🔞|| 30+ || PT-BR / ENG || GameDev
Currently suffering over Elden Ring and LoP || fictional Long haired dudes worshiper
Currently suffering over Elden Ring and LoP || fictional Long haired dudes worshiper
Mika's vet appointment will be tomorrow and i am so anxious about it. Especially bc i wont be able to go, since i have my therapy session at the same time and date, so Bea and my mother will go instead. I'm just so afraid to lose my pom-pom baby;;;;;
October 27, 2025 at 6:03 PM
Mika's vet appointment will be tomorrow and i am so anxious about it. Especially bc i wont be able to go, since i have my therapy session at the same time and date, so Bea and my mother will go instead. I'm just so afraid to lose my pom-pom baby;;;;;
one who has the right to freak out at this, while me and my sibling HAVE TO be there and be strong for her.
Like... I'm already having a hard time being lowkey unmedicated (got some meds but need the rest of them) and being strong for myself lol
Like... I'm already having a hard time being lowkey unmedicated (got some meds but need the rest of them) and being strong for myself lol
October 27, 2025 at 6:01 PM
one who has the right to freak out at this, while me and my sibling HAVE TO be there and be strong for her.
Like... I'm already having a hard time being lowkey unmedicated (got some meds but need the rest of them) and being strong for myself lol
Like... I'm already having a hard time being lowkey unmedicated (got some meds but need the rest of them) and being strong for myself lol
I'm also VERY worried bc Mika's results came inconclusive but it does points out for a possibility of a malign tumor on his liver. izzy has also been coughing a lot. And i cant not think of Sammy's lung cancer whenever i see stuff going bad with their health.
My mother acts as if shes the only
My mother acts as if shes the only
October 27, 2025 at 6:01 PM
I'm also VERY worried bc Mika's results came inconclusive but it does points out for a possibility of a malign tumor on his liver. izzy has also been coughing a lot. And i cant not think of Sammy's lung cancer whenever i see stuff going bad with their health.
My mother acts as if shes the only
My mother acts as if shes the only
Like, even when i get the mood to actually do smth i like to distract, she'll complain bc im not doing smth SHE enjoys (as in, bc im using the tv to play video games and not to watch a movie with her). It's like theres no winning :)))
October 27, 2025 at 5:57 PM
Like, even when i get the mood to actually do smth i like to distract, she'll complain bc im not doing smth SHE enjoys (as in, bc im using the tv to play video games and not to watch a movie with her). It's like theres no winning :)))
im getting straight up panic attacks over the slighest things i do wrong bc she just explodes on me for the smallest mistakes
I love her. I do. I wish that she would look for professional help to improve.
I love her. I do. I wish that she would look for professional help to improve.
October 27, 2025 at 5:57 PM
im getting straight up panic attacks over the slighest things i do wrong bc she just explodes on me for the smallest mistakes
I love her. I do. I wish that she would look for professional help to improve.
I love her. I do. I wish that she would look for professional help to improve.
made if about herself; told me to stop talking bc it reminded her of the ordeal, which, fair, maybe she didnt want to talk about it. But I have to talk about, or just listen when she wants to vent about it.
October 27, 2025 at 5:52 PM
made if about herself; told me to stop talking bc it reminded her of the ordeal, which, fair, maybe she didnt want to talk about it. But I have to talk about, or just listen when she wants to vent about it.
wants to go out and doesnt want to go alone.
So i told her how even taking this decision is a delicate matter to me, bc it was when i got back into my classes that Sammy had his first seizure and i cant shake off the feeling i had when i saw it whenever i sit to study.
and she started crying and
So i told her how even taking this decision is a delicate matter to me, bc it was when i got back into my classes that Sammy had his first seizure and i cant shake off the feeling i had when i saw it whenever i sit to study.
and she started crying and
October 27, 2025 at 5:52 PM
wants to go out and doesnt want to go alone.
So i told her how even taking this decision is a delicate matter to me, bc it was when i got back into my classes that Sammy had his first seizure and i cant shake off the feeling i had when i saw it whenever i sit to study.
and she started crying and
So i told her how even taking this decision is a delicate matter to me, bc it was when i got back into my classes that Sammy had his first seizure and i cant shake off the feeling i had when i saw it whenever i sit to study.
and she started crying and
and even when i DO smth she wants, it's never enough. Especially if it is related to our pets. bc i didnt do it the exact fucking way she wanted.
I was just telling her today how i need to get back into my studies. And she wasnt supportive, oh no, she told me to start later on the week bc she
I was just telling her today how i need to get back into my studies. And she wasnt supportive, oh no, she told me to start later on the week bc she
October 27, 2025 at 5:52 PM
and even when i DO smth she wants, it's never enough. Especially if it is related to our pets. bc i didnt do it the exact fucking way she wanted.
I was just telling her today how i need to get back into my studies. And she wasnt supportive, oh no, she told me to start later on the week bc she
I was just telling her today how i need to get back into my studies. And she wasnt supportive, oh no, she told me to start later on the week bc she
i wasnt feeling bad already for having a shitty memory.
She forgets things all the time, but when it's me?? Curses be upon me!!!
She also says that i dont do enough for her and dad. Like lol yeah i know, i already tell myself everyday how useless i am for not finding a job
She forgets things all the time, but when it's me?? Curses be upon me!!!
She also says that i dont do enough for her and dad. Like lol yeah i know, i already tell myself everyday how useless i am for not finding a job
October 27, 2025 at 5:52 PM
i wasnt feeling bad already for having a shitty memory.
She forgets things all the time, but when it's me?? Curses be upon me!!!
She also says that i dont do enough for her and dad. Like lol yeah i know, i already tell myself everyday how useless i am for not finding a job
She forgets things all the time, but when it's me?? Curses be upon me!!!
She also says that i dont do enough for her and dad. Like lol yeah i know, i already tell myself everyday how useless i am for not finding a job
i am also going through a bad time. Not even once she asked if i needed to talk, or simply accepted that i needed some space.
and i dont need to hear that after my pets are gone, we wont be adotping any other bc >me and my sibling are lazy, awful pet tutors<
bc i messed up Mika's meds once. As if
and i dont need to hear that after my pets are gone, we wont be adotping any other bc >me and my sibling are lazy, awful pet tutors<
bc i messed up Mika's meds once. As if
October 27, 2025 at 5:52 PM
i am also going through a bad time. Not even once she asked if i needed to talk, or simply accepted that i needed some space.
and i dont need to hear that after my pets are gone, we wont be adotping any other bc >me and my sibling are lazy, awful pet tutors<
bc i messed up Mika's meds once. As if
and i dont need to hear that after my pets are gone, we wont be adotping any other bc >me and my sibling are lazy, awful pet tutors<
bc i messed up Mika's meds once. As if
she was the one who was there for him. How me and my sibling were awful and didnt try as hard as she wanted us to try.
She is going through grief as well, sure, but that doesnt excuse her insensible speech. Nor her demands that I do whatever she wants bc she is too hurt and shaken to do it herself.
She is going through grief as well, sure, but that doesnt excuse her insensible speech. Nor her demands that I do whatever she wants bc she is too hurt and shaken to do it herself.
October 27, 2025 at 5:52 PM
she was the one who was there for him. How me and my sibling were awful and didnt try as hard as she wanted us to try.
She is going through grief as well, sure, but that doesnt excuse her insensible speech. Nor her demands that I do whatever she wants bc she is too hurt and shaken to do it herself.
She is going through grief as well, sure, but that doesnt excuse her insensible speech. Nor her demands that I do whatever she wants bc she is too hurt and shaken to do it herself.
even slept on the floor by his side. I knew the time was coming and i wanted to be there for him.
My mother... narcisist as she is, didnt even stay in the same room as him, for the last days. I dont blame her, tho. I know it was hard to see him like that. HOWEVER. I do blame her for speaking as if
My mother... narcisist as she is, didnt even stay in the same room as him, for the last days. I dont blame her, tho. I know it was hard to see him like that. HOWEVER. I do blame her for speaking as if
October 27, 2025 at 5:52 PM
even slept on the floor by his side. I knew the time was coming and i wanted to be there for him.
My mother... narcisist as she is, didnt even stay in the same room as him, for the last days. I dont blame her, tho. I know it was hard to see him like that. HOWEVER. I do blame her for speaking as if
My mother... narcisist as she is, didnt even stay in the same room as him, for the last days. I dont blame her, tho. I know it was hard to see him like that. HOWEVER. I do blame her for speaking as if
understandable, since it affected my whole close family.
thing is: theres no need to villainize me or my sibling for what happened nor for how bad things are going to our other pets.
I am carrying a lot of weight from remembering his last moments. I did all i could. I kept him comfortable and
thing is: theres no need to villainize me or my sibling for what happened nor for how bad things are going to our other pets.
I am carrying a lot of weight from remembering his last moments. I did all i could. I kept him comfortable and
October 27, 2025 at 5:52 PM
understandable, since it affected my whole close family.
thing is: theres no need to villainize me or my sibling for what happened nor for how bad things are going to our other pets.
I am carrying a lot of weight from remembering his last moments. I did all i could. I kept him comfortable and
thing is: theres no need to villainize me or my sibling for what happened nor for how bad things are going to our other pets.
I am carrying a lot of weight from remembering his last moments. I did all i could. I kept him comfortable and
this will be deleted, i just want to get stuff outta my chest.
After losing Sammy, ive felt numb. Little by little, it started to hurt, as if a part of me was missing. Typical grieving process, i know. thing is, i was never giving a proper calm /safe environment to deal with this.
which is
After losing Sammy, ive felt numb. Little by little, it started to hurt, as if a part of me was missing. Typical grieving process, i know. thing is, i was never giving a proper calm /safe environment to deal with this.
which is
October 27, 2025 at 5:52 PM
this will be deleted, i just want to get stuff outta my chest.
After losing Sammy, ive felt numb. Little by little, it started to hurt, as if a part of me was missing. Typical grieving process, i know. thing is, i was never giving a proper calm /safe environment to deal with this.
which is
After losing Sammy, ive felt numb. Little by little, it started to hurt, as if a part of me was missing. Typical grieving process, i know. thing is, i was never giving a proper calm /safe environment to deal with this.
which is
Obrigado pelos sentimentos 🫂
October 8, 2025 at 12:21 PM
Obrigado pelos sentimentos 🫂
And thank you. I forgot to add on that reply
October 8, 2025 at 12:20 PM
And thank you. I forgot to add on that reply
It rlly was for the best 🫂 he.... wasnt happy at all. Oddly enough, im glad bc he isnt suffering anymore.
He was very strong and taught us a lot
His absence is what hurts the most
He was very strong and taught us a lot
His absence is what hurts the most
October 8, 2025 at 12:20 PM
It rlly was for the best 🫂 he.... wasnt happy at all. Oddly enough, im glad bc he isnt suffering anymore.
He was very strong and taught us a lot
His absence is what hurts the most
He was very strong and taught us a lot
His absence is what hurts the most
My baby is gone. He stopped suffering.
October 8, 2025 at 11:02 AM
My baby is gone. He stopped suffering.
Around 6 days ago he had his first seizure. Then 2 more on the next day. He was in the hospital for 2-3 days and started phenobarbital while there.
He's still adapting, and lemme tell you, it's a very tough phase for him and us;;;
Ppl say the side effects ease after 2 weeks
He's still adapting, and lemme tell you, it's a very tough phase for him and us;;;
Ppl say the side effects ease after 2 weeks
October 7, 2025 at 3:05 PM
Around 6 days ago he had his first seizure. Then 2 more on the next day. He was in the hospital for 2-3 days and started phenobarbital while there.
He's still adapting, and lemme tell you, it's a very tough phase for him and us;;;
Ppl say the side effects ease after 2 weeks
He's still adapting, and lemme tell you, it's a very tough phase for him and us;;;
Ppl say the side effects ease after 2 weeks