deadlines are another thing though. but I hope you can rest after and pat yourself on the back for getting through it. and speaking of rest, you aren't losing if you rest. you're just restoring your power level until you're ready.

cheesy? I do not care. I was booooorn in the cheese. moulded by it.

Oh yeah, I'm not gonna bother. I want to have my peace of mind XD but it's good to just be aware that there might be a drama

Wait, drama? Oh I don't even know, if there's bigger drama lmao
I'm specifically talking about the communities where I was hanging out a lot (basically every stream) before I got busier with my days. Was there daily but the people and the vibe started changing and I'm just completely... Meh

🫂

Also also I want to play more Expedition 33. I didn't have enough of it yesterday and I'm still thinking of that bossfight I went through. Was pretty cool and I crave more now.

On a bit more positive note. I'm slowly working on a revamp. Hopefully it's gonna be done before my streaming anniversary in a few months.
Other than that, I managed to reread what the files for writing have stored so I could go back to rewriting and editing and such.

I should probably clear my follow list on Twitch as well since there are a few places I don't hang out in anymore or I actually never did to begin with.
Yet again, feeling like an ass and that I belong nowhere sucks big time because it feels lonely as hell. And it's kicking me now ._.

Besides my brain being an ass right now
I just left 2 Discord servers and decided to stop being on invisible mode there. Maybe it's gonna be fine now. Would be sweet to do the same on Steam but I feel like I'd need to get a few people out of my friend list and I don't wanna bother/do it.

The difference between now and then is that I've been actually more productive for past idk 2 months in general so I might be cooking on this. I just gotta figure out what I wanna do and I'll make it one way or another

As much as saying hi is not a problem, I know that liking some posts will end up with me doom scrolling and I do have to avoid that whenever possible so I can be productive in any way

But it's also true that we have so many expectations from ourselves

It's just hard to do it when I don't have much to say (and I don't want to repeat myself due to doing the same stuff) or things would be too personal and I don't want to overshare ._.

Did expect this day to be better considering I went to sleep really happy after the stream ._.

And if not, at least I want my brain to be able to learn anything today. I really don't want to be stuck at the start of learning the language forever xD