But hey - still kickin'! I'm back to gradschool, I still work on my fics, I've been writing two poem books a year, I'm in more friend groups, I've been reading again (only a few books away from my 2025 goal, too, yay!). I just have to be + patient with myself and take my current life for what it is

I remember being able to juggle all of that once. I keep thinking I don't really know what happened, I just miss the person who could handle everything and have time and energy to spare. I guess I'm still mourning that person, even now. But this new person ain't half bad, just... too busy, too tired

There's only so much progress that gets done in short writing bursts after very time-consuming worldbuilding. And unfortunately creativity just hasn't been a priority lately. Gotta stay alive, active and semi-sane, gotta take care of others, gotta pull off professional and academic projects...

The truth is I'm exhausted. Have been for a while, I guess. But life doesn't wait. And even if I've been working on fic consistently-ish, it's not producing results as fast as I'd expected and hoped. It's too much to take care of at once, so the efforts I can put in are minimal at best - & it shows