For now (since I'm repeating words whoops) I'm going to just focus on sleep.

I'm hoping all of this will be easier when I'm recovered to deal with when I'm recovered. I've never felt this kind of pain before or been through this much medical mayhem in my life and it's hard not to feel overwhelmed.

Do you revisit it? Try to move on? Take space and figure it out later? I still don't really know the answer to that.

On top of that, more time was spent pandering to their distress and their own emotional turmoil while yours got shelved. The dust settles and things feel like they *should* be fine but...I can't help but feel robbed that I opened up about something that the other person then made all about them.

Fourth: I got a revelation right before all of this medical stuff hit the fan that I'm not sure what to think about. How do you confront and process the knowledge that someone you care about ignored boundaries and comfort levels of yours because it wasn't convenient for them?

Third: the ER docs were rough with the pelvic exam they gave me and I know I'm bleeding down there but thankfully it's not a lot? But just enough to be uncomfortable. Hard to bandage a wound between your legs, especially a small one that's enough to ache and hurt but not enough to be alarming.

Second: my energy levels have tanked and so has my drive to do most anything besides exist. It sucks, but I know there's not much to be done about it besides focus on rest and recovery. When that fails? I've been watching a lot of AGT and BGT compilations.

First: nervous about going into work tomorrow. It's just for a day and then I have Tuesday off but I'm nervous given these pain levels can be unpredictable even with all the stuff I'm taking to manage it. It's 9.5 hours of hoping things work out so I come out the other end intact.

"A change is as good as a rest" is something that's helped me a lot when it comes to considering doing things for writing or creative purposes. Almost all slumps can be resolved by either changing your process or used characters or environments to give you the jolt you need to find enjoyment again.

I think it's why it's so hard for me to fully let go of WoW, because that flows so much more easily there than in FF14 for me as far as a setting to interact with for RP outside of just creating something custom in discord.

Additionally, I've found that letting myself feel comfortable enough to let go and make those changes and do that cleansing kind of destruction is what lets creativity thrive. Maybe it could do that for you too?

This is me a lot of the time too. I love FF in a lot of ways, but I was just talking about this the other day that doing things like crafting plots and actual stories in this setting is *such* a challenge compared to other places I've written.