Shūkū [甃空] (they/them)
@lexardix.bsky.social
甃空 - "A lonely soul walking on stone through a sky of emptiness"
mentally unstable
AuDHD
enby | aroace
university student
(unhealthy) obsession with BSD
special interests: Literatur & Linguistics; Psychology
https://en.pronouns.page/@lexardix
mentally unstable
AuDHD
enby | aroace
university student
(unhealthy) obsession with BSD
special interests: Literatur & Linguistics; Psychology
https://en.pronouns.page/@lexardix
Why is expressing your feelings so hard?
I'm trying to write down my racing thoughts, but it's so hard and weird to write them down.
Plus, it always sounds like I'm about to commit or confess.
Communication is key, but it's something you need to learn in an environment that's safe to you
I'm trying to write down my racing thoughts, but it's so hard and weird to write them down.
Plus, it always sounds like I'm about to commit or confess.
Communication is key, but it's something you need to learn in an environment that's safe to you
February 18, 2026 at 11:57 PM
Why is expressing your feelings so hard?
I'm trying to write down my racing thoughts, but it's so hard and weird to write them down.
Plus, it always sounds like I'm about to commit or confess.
Communication is key, but it's something you need to learn in an environment that's safe to you
I'm trying to write down my racing thoughts, but it's so hard and weird to write them down.
Plus, it always sounds like I'm about to commit or confess.
Communication is key, but it's something you need to learn in an environment that's safe to you
Jup, I'm literally terrified of all kinds of food again.
The ED cycle starts again.
Well, at least it's not BED anymore
The ED cycle starts again.
Well, at least it's not BED anymore
My TikTok algorithm is trying to push me back into ana ED.
(It's working)
(It's working)
January 15, 2026 at 4:24 PM
Jup, I'm literally terrified of all kinds of food again.
The ED cycle starts again.
Well, at least it's not BED anymore
The ED cycle starts again.
Well, at least it's not BED anymore
6 years later, the exact same spiral is beginning. The same thoughts, the same wish, everything
December 22, 2025 at 9:00 PM
6 years later, the exact same spiral is beginning. The same thoughts, the same wish, everything
My TikTok algorithm is trying to push me back into ana ED.
(It's working)
(It's working)
December 22, 2025 at 8:49 PM
My TikTok algorithm is trying to push me back into ana ED.
(It's working)
(It's working)
Reposted by Shūkū [甃空] (they/them)
December 4, 2025 at 6:37 AM
I love my hair for being so obedient.
I didn't do anything but let it grow, and it grew exactly how I wanted it to be.
My hair knows its destiny: Dazai haircut
I didn't do anything but let it grow, and it grew exactly how I wanted it to be.
My hair knows its destiny: Dazai haircut
December 4, 2025 at 8:53 AM
I love my hair for being so obedient.
I didn't do anything but let it grow, and it grew exactly how I wanted it to be.
My hair knows its destiny: Dazai haircut
I didn't do anything but let it grow, and it grew exactly how I wanted it to be.
My hair knows its destiny: Dazai haircut
I'm currently sharing my opinions on the latest chapter, and my X notifications are exploding.
This chapter was wild
This chapter was wild
November 3, 2025 at 4:46 PM
I'm currently sharing my opinions on the latest chapter, and my X notifications are exploding.
This chapter was wild
This chapter was wild
November 3, 2025 at 3:32 PM
Asagiri-sensei finally did it!
I just got represented a reason to live (for at least a lil bit longer), holy sh!t
Verlaine is now part of the main manga, hell yeah!
#bungostraydogs
#bsd
#verlaine
I just got represented a reason to live (for at least a lil bit longer), holy sh!t
Verlaine is now part of the main manga, hell yeah!
#bungostraydogs
#bsd
#verlaine
November 3, 2025 at 3:20 PM
Asagiri-sensei finally did it!
I just got represented a reason to live (for at least a lil bit longer), holy sh!t
Verlaine is now part of the main manga, hell yeah!
#bungostraydogs
#bsd
#verlaine
I just got represented a reason to live (for at least a lil bit longer), holy sh!t
Verlaine is now part of the main manga, hell yeah!
#bungostraydogs
#bsd
#verlaine
I'm self-sabotaging again... I'm not okay
October 18, 2025 at 3:54 PM
I'm self-sabotaging again... I'm not okay
Reposted by Shūkū [甃空] (they/them)
lately i just feel like im breaking own or having a meltdown like every other day and im tired. the bpd autism adhd trifecta is really hard bc the bpd makes aspects of the other two worse. both bpd and adhd have the automatic 'all or nothing' setting and ill feel either too much emotion or none
October 17, 2025 at 4:10 PM
lately i just feel like im breaking own or having a meltdown like every other day and im tired. the bpd autism adhd trifecta is really hard bc the bpd makes aspects of the other two worse. both bpd and adhd have the automatic 'all or nothing' setting and ill feel either too much emotion or none
I'm so done with pretending. I don't care anymore. I'm sick of living in a world that's not made for me because it's full of absurdity and crowded with idiots. In the best case, I die tonight; in the worst case, I survive. Everything is repeating in circles. What's the point when it ends anyway
October 10, 2025 at 12:14 AM
I'm so done with pretending. I don't care anymore. I'm sick of living in a world that's not made for me because it's full of absurdity and crowded with idiots. In the best case, I die tonight; in the worst case, I survive. Everything is repeating in circles. What's the point when it ends anyway
I hate my bpd. Like, what do you mean I was crying a few minutes ago over nothing, and now I'm laughing at a video I just saw???
October 4, 2025 at 10:35 PM
I hate my bpd. Like, what do you mean I was crying a few minutes ago over nothing, and now I'm laughing at a video I just saw???
bpd splitting was so intense, I even tried to pick up a fight with a KI after probably ruining a friendship
September 6, 2025 at 9:35 PM
bpd splitting was so intense, I even tried to pick up a fight with a KI after probably ruining a friendship
This moment, when you have a sensitive hearing and you turn music up to maximum volume that you automatically grimacing in pain because it's way too loud, but it's the only way to dull the pain inside and the never ending thoughts
August 21, 2025 at 7:50 PM
This moment, when you have a sensitive hearing and you turn music up to maximum volume that you automatically grimacing in pain because it's way too loud, but it's the only way to dull the pain inside and the never ending thoughts
My inner child needs to learn that nothing has changed and nothing ever will when it comes to socializing. I will always be alone without meaningful contact with others, and that's okay, I can't act selfishly and at worst hurt others by absue their time just to cure my loneliness.
August 21, 2025 at 7:34 PM
My inner child needs to learn that nothing has changed and nothing ever will when it comes to socializing. I will always be alone without meaningful contact with others, and that's okay, I can't act selfishly and at worst hurt others by absue their time just to cure my loneliness.
Someone had gifted me a twitch subscription as a cheer-up. Maybe the day isn't that bad.
Thank you again. You are amazing <3
Thank you again. You are amazing <3
July 25, 2025 at 10:15 AM
Someone had gifted me a twitch subscription as a cheer-up. Maybe the day isn't that bad.
Thank you again. You are amazing <3
Thank you again. You are amazing <3
Me: I should study for my next exam
Also me: *learns sign language for my next mutism episode*
Also me: *learns sign language for my next mutism episode*
July 22, 2025 at 5:43 PM
Me: I should study for my next exam
Also me: *learns sign language for my next mutism episode*
Also me: *learns sign language for my next mutism episode*
It's so entertaining to watch people discuss what gender I have.
Like, a female coworker thought I'm female while a male coworker thought I'm male. They literally argued about it.
Meanwhile, I stand beside them and watch the scene unfold.
My enby ass approves that. I nail the androgynous look.
Like, a female coworker thought I'm female while a male coworker thought I'm male. They literally argued about it.
Meanwhile, I stand beside them and watch the scene unfold.
My enby ass approves that. I nail the androgynous look.
July 19, 2025 at 10:02 PM
It's so entertaining to watch people discuss what gender I have.
Like, a female coworker thought I'm female while a male coworker thought I'm male. They literally argued about it.
Meanwhile, I stand beside them and watch the scene unfold.
My enby ass approves that. I nail the androgynous look.
Like, a female coworker thought I'm female while a male coworker thought I'm male. They literally argued about it.
Meanwhile, I stand beside them and watch the scene unfold.
My enby ass approves that. I nail the androgynous look.
I'm still here
July 10, 2025 at 10:28 PM
I'm still here
Screaming and crying in agonizing pain because I have nobody in my life who cares about me
July 10, 2025 at 10:27 PM
Screaming and crying in agonizing pain because I have nobody in my life who cares about me
I'm so fcking close to end it; starting the fifth attempt.
I can't take this anymore. I need peace
I can't take this anymore. I need peace
July 10, 2025 at 8:59 PM
I'm so fcking close to end it; starting the fifth attempt.
I can't take this anymore. I need peace
I can't take this anymore. I need peace
Me core:
- Crying for an hour without a reason
- standing up after calming down
- fainting
✨️BPD and Depression✨️
- Crying for an hour without a reason
- standing up after calming down
- fainting
✨️BPD and Depression✨️
July 10, 2025 at 8:28 PM
Me core:
- Crying for an hour without a reason
- standing up after calming down
- fainting
✨️BPD and Depression✨️
- Crying for an hour without a reason
- standing up after calming down
- fainting
✨️BPD and Depression✨️
