the sheer number of friends acting like it never happened, I can't wipe away the hurt in my heart that easily, it just hurts so fucking bad to have lost that community

allowed to attend events n be friends w the runners, it makes me want to curl up in a ball and die genuinely to hear all of my friends excited to attend their events again as if this didn't just go down like months ago, I feel insane, I feel so in the wrong for feeling the way I do about it bc of

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