and also i'll tell them 'i don't have a headspace' (i do but it's more concept of headspace than anything) 'i don't hear them' etc etc and they'll just be like "yeah you don't NEED a headspace you don't NEED to hear them" okay maybe i don't hear them cause i'm not a system like what.

yeah like listing it out i guess i could see it?? but actually hearing about things that happen in system's heads or whatever just. Does not fit me at all LMAO I'm fine with the elizasys joke but i think they need to stop there and not try to go farther with it!!!

and trying to give myself system terms and shit just feels weirddd it doesn't feel like it fits me

thas what i'm saying they out here headcanoning me with unspecified dissociative disorder no maybe i'm just mentally unstable and latch onto characters easily what about that guys

also this

-i had bad personality shifts in 2020-2022
-my pronouns and gender constantly change

-i have a headspace-esque thing
-the lurkers whenever they started watching would change my thoughts (exr-p making me wish i had a tail etc)
-changes with my typing when certain lurkers are watching
-i can remember everything but my childhood
-i have introjects apparently (connor and dragondudes3)

ship i don't like that i could block the person who posts it vs actual crime...goddamn...

should i have shipped the 19x24 ship? maybe not. okay yeah i'll admit maybe i shouldn't have. but i think comparing it to shipping 19x44 and making nsfw of a 17 year old is a bit too far okay.