Much appreciated

yikes

wow

This is exactly why we did acid back then

thank you that’s very kind

hospital social work
way way easier on the soul

I’ve met wonderful clients and friends

I’m still a closeted dyslexic and yes I had a 37 successful years with some moments of greatness - still imposter syndrome was always, always lurking

I always expected I should be better

I was mostly as white bread as they were and I did walk it back - especially as I became stronger academically - …

- to my sincere complete surprise- in the next year I was encouraged to apply to grad school

Grad school shifted me away from working child protection - and shifted me into …11

not only did my marks start marching north - but in the sea of mostly middle class protected white women who have never missed a credit card payment and have or will marry well - I kinda leaned into becoming the class spokesperson for the downtrodden and the disenfranchised -

Wasn’t true- …10

I sort of left out the part that clarified I was mostly an observer

And that paper was really well received they were now titillated
about I thought okay fuck it - if that’s what they want- I can can build papers around for lack of better words: self exploration into my loserness …9

So that was great and my first A mark still I was snowed in so I pulled out another paper - this one from my Cultural Anthropology course describing my brother’s old teen gang’s brith, rise, fall, and the dissipation of the young - but when I re wrote it in the context of urban youth anomie …8

that was more interesting
so I thought what the hell and so I did a sloppy lit review of resilience in children and nervously submitted the mush

And it kinda blew up
in I guess a good way - it was discussed in the class and with my embarrassed permission passed around a little … 7