Let me take a moment,
To reconcile,
A single moment to accept,
That we are all meant to die.

This makes me wonder,
What do I get to live behind?
Does it even matter?
Just a few years down the line?

In a fleeting moment,
You can live a lifetime,
It's these sheer moments,
That build a lifetime.

A promise to myself,
Just a word I have to say,
With everything I will get,
I pray to never go astray.

It's been a while,
I can't lie,
Without you by my side,
How much longer can I survive?

I don't even want to die,
Since you are still alive,
You won't be on the other side,

I know you love this life,
More than you love being by my side
As I sit here, I think and cry
How dare you leave me behind?!

They claim that it gets better,
Everything would make sense,
How much do I have to break,
For this suffering to end?

I'm sitting here tonight,
Thinking about my might,
Will I ever get anything right?

Will my silent battle ever get loud?
Will I share my thoughts aloud?
Or is it something that I wear like a shroud?
Taking all this to the ground?

I choose to do something drastic that feels dramatic,
I want to do better by myself
So, I come here writing letters to thyself,
As I create this account and share my two cents, I want the world to see my progress
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