You have the skills and the knowledge. You need to let yourself do the work.

If I wanted to know why a certain color shading works more than another, you'd tell me.

If I asked why certain food pairings work well together or how to make a pleasing course, you'd tell me why certain combos wouldn't work together.

You're scared and anxious. That's different from being an idiot.

If I asked you to explain to tell me why you think the Ancients of FF14 ended up splintering, I know you would have your own opinions on the subject.