What's lacking or missing? I'm not going to be able to get MP4 for some time due to my financial crisis, but I'm curious from the perspective of someone prototyping my own stuff.

A big part of recovery for me is accountability. When I don't regulate, I hold myself responsible, even as I express to others how I needed external help.

But I can't get there if I can't get relief from the agitation.

I'm so glad I work with someone who sees that struggle.

I changed my role and set boundaries after that, and made it clear to HR that I was disappointed that none of the leads involved had the slightest amount of de-escalation skills, forcing me to de-escalate myself while overwhelmed and attacked.

Someone had my back this time. That meant everything.

I had a meltdown at the end of summer.

I recognized it starting and stated that I was distressed, needed to leave a few minutes early & would not complete a final, least important task.

Three leads each thought what needed to be done was to actively debate me on whether that deserved consequences.

Welp, this has blown up. So, what the heck; if you're curious about my approach to plot twists, this is my book.