TLDR: there is no awnser, life will end, your job is to not fuck up your high score within your time limit you are given

while not applicable to most, being silly is what drives me, if i can do something crazy and silly, i will do it just because i can, cuz i don't do it now, i might not be able to experience it later
(this mindset somehow made me end up in the most silly places imaginable :3)

that beying that my life is a hardcore game where i have a single chance to reach a highscore, im playing as a character that should try getting every possible achievement, possible or not, but most of the time just silly

long story short, every year just before my birthday i get a month long existential crysis where i start worrying about what comes after death and whats the point of it all. This year i think i kinda unlocked an awnser i like enough where i can live with it.

modded Minecraft :3

Damn, new wallpaper acquired, amazing work!