To not i think its accidental but this being the only mega level garurumon that has a melee wepon and being gold is funky. Also not out of the question with howmany direct rider refrences are in digimon

Butts

Or i guse if its shadow jason toddler

God i love your art

I see a bit of skull girls in the design

I laugh and say yah im good at this but almost all the time its an act.

But i have been able to notice when my work is worth it, i am genuinely happier and more open, is it any i want hell no but its the first step.

"No one hate you more then yourself"

All of this steming from seeing so many people improving on not just art but everything.

But with me and my obnoxiously high self standards i can smile at what i do or improve at. I cant even acknowledge when i have improved at anything i just internally say "took you long enoph"

That not something i can do because that is ignoring a huge part of who i am

And when i try to get awnsers as what happening i just get the same old "you can do it just ignore everything and doo it"

Eather i drop the utensils or the idea compleatly disappears the moment i try.

There is pobebly a case of stress induced artist block or depression. And i dont know what it is