I ended up using this space to just vent into the void of the Internet. I have deleted most of them now. I want to socialize more now that I lost the person who was always there for me. I want to fill that space left. So I want to be able to use this space to interact with people.

This betrayal from someone who once said they loved me, Not just love promised me to grow old together, promised they would always love me despite my flaws, promised they would properly try to fix things with me if something happened or came between us. Yet all of them were lies.

I really hate this feeling. This is absolutely the worst feeling I have ever felt in my entire life.