Hoping the best out of me during this difficult time in my life. Sorry about the 18 posts, but the thread is there for me to be open about the struggles I am currently going through. (18)

I have been applying to jobs when one opens and becomes of interest. But if a city job isn't working, I went to retail, GameStop, CVS, Dollar Tree. CVS and Dollar Tree are my best bets to start off cause they're close to my home so transportation isn't bad at all. (17)

But yeah, this is the venting that I have currently. I never been open about my personal life cause I can handle it personally, but this is an all-time low in my life and I just needed to be open about what's going on in my life recently. (16)

I never felt this low in a long time. The last time I was this was a decade ago when I almost got kicked out of the house at 17 cause I was still at odds with my mom cause she was paranoid of a church group I used to go to was pulling a Red Scare and was prejudice to that group back then. (15)

Most of my friends that I met in the past 5 years are either out of state or living in another country and I can see the friends from out of state at Anime Expo every July because we share the love for anime and being weebs and dancing the night away while the world is burning. (14)

I don't go out a lot than I used to when I was in college. I don't have a lot of friends now since most of them were from school and they're doing their own things and I have a small handful from college that I still talk to to this day and it's great and all. (13)

Half of me feels like I just wanna give up and embrace the NEET life I am living in but the other half is telling me to never back down and never give up no matter the cost even if I get kicked out or move out and become homeless because housing economy is still at an all-time low. (12)

And right now my mom is the only one that is working and she's in her 50s. She is close to hitting the retirement age and she can retire when she hits it but the issue now is that me and my brother are currently unemployed and it just sucks that we have let her down after college. (11)

And I found out that he dropped out of college some time during the early 2020s due to financial reasons (aka tuition expensive af). It was mostly from his major actually fucking him up in the worst way possible: professors retiring or not teaching the subjects he needed for his major. (10)

As far as job hunting goes, it hasn't improved considering real world events and politics atm (IYKYK). And the issue rn is that both me and my brother have been NEETS since last year. My brother ended up quitting his job early 2023 and hasn't found a job at all. (9)

It wasn't until I crashed at home, woke up in the middle of the night where I ended up breaking down alone knowing that this was a friend that I cared for and was an amazing friend when we met 2 years ago. I wish nothing but the best in life for the friend that gave me my first heartbreak. (8)

I didn't wanna escalate it further cause the friend wanted to have no contact which actually tore my heart asunder...tried hiding the tears but it kept flowing. Eventually I didn't have tears but kept thinking about it. Hell, even after watching Sonic 3 I couldn't stop thinking about it. (7)

I recently had my first heartbreak towards the end of last year and it shattered me. Not in a relationship at all but it was a friendship breakup with a friend that I really cared about since 2023. No beef, no drama, no BS, just a mutual breakup and it tore me... (6)

The only thing that is a roadblock is my depression and it came back after being dormant from the last time I got it. It was all the death that happened during my college life along with the no job hunt plus one of the worst things I had experienced as a first timer too... (5)

And for those that don't know what NEET stands for, it's Not Employed, Educated, nor in Training, and it's been that life for the past year now. I have been hunting and it's been failure after failure, but I haven't given up and still fighting through. (4)

...but the main issue is that tuition is the most difficult thing about it since I have already done 5.5 years of college to earn a Bachelor's that can't be used in anything unfortunately, which actually sucks in general. (3)

...along with life in general. I unexpectedly have been living the NEET life since the end of my internship in 2023 and managed to not get a job last year, but this year the job hunt still goes on. It has been rough since there's the pressure of going back to college... (2)