this sounds so whiny and pick me lol. cosplay is really hard on the self esteem. it’s just hard to exist in the cosplay world as a conventionally unattractive woman

comparison is the theft of joy. but it is really devastating to see skinny and beautiful people doing the same character with less effort get all the attention and compliments on how beautiful they are

meanwhile my barbara gordon cosplay, a character long described as beautiful and desirable, gets far less engagement even with a lighting and backdrop that takes time and effort.

i’m probably actually insane bc if he saw this he would probably say we were never that close anyway. so it’s all in my head anyway

the complexities of ex friends don’t even get me started. i’m so insecure about my friendships ever since this individual and im not convinced anyone wants to be my friend anymore.

it was such a jump scare. if i had a dollar for every moment in larp as grayson he made someone uncomfortable i would a wealthy woman. but i guess im at fault for not speaking up sooner right?