anyway, all this is to say im tired of making characters or working on new harebrained schemes like doing a sprite comic. idk what ill do instead but i think my own hands are always going to disappoint me until i change in some way

ive spent my formative years being a person who wants to create a story with a setting and characters, bc i was surrounded by the ambitions of others who want to do that or are doing it. i don't really think its something i feel, but i love working and practicing my skills

i feel like i know myself a little, and ive been thinking about it a lot. i dont want to say something just to end up believing a lie about myself, but i think i just really enjoy working on something and learning, but i also happen to be shaped by creative interests into doing those things at all

people say i need to practice and maybe thats true, i dont really doubt it, but maybe i just dont have any stories to tell. i want to be a creator, but my brain stuff is just locking me out, and i might need help to get out of my own way. but then maybe ill just be growing dependent on others

GET IT TWISTED: there's only one new vegas playstyle or run you can do and thats the one that you do like every two years or so

i do however have dreams where im late for work instead though lmfao

im 32 and i havent had one for quite a while, so maybe that?

diarmid being like "wanna see me meanpost?"

"...wanna see me do it again?"

if i was a ninja type of protag (as thats the only cross between a kuroko and a ronin i can imagine) i would want to be a magic focused one. less swordplay and shurikens and more stuff like that substitution trick