ksist0s
@ksist0s.bsky.social
[RU/ENG] [he/they] writer for 11 years already — didn't write even a single book. How? 11 years of world building! The author of widely known in narrow circles Cyntaksis universe (like "syntax", but in russian). THE yapping account
Ah how I love reading drafts I made at like.. 3-4 am, it's pure chaos
It's only about half in broken russian (and I didn't even realise that I know such words) and half in english with random words in german/french, which meanings I can't even tell now because I honestly forgot both languages
It's only about half in broken russian (and I didn't even realise that I know such words) and half in english with random words in german/french, which meanings I can't even tell now because I honestly forgot both languages
December 19, 2024 at 4:20 PM
Ah how I love reading drafts I made at like.. 3-4 am, it's pure chaos
It's only about half in broken russian (and I didn't even realise that I know such words) and half in english with random words in german/french, which meanings I can't even tell now because I honestly forgot both languages
It's only about half in broken russian (and I didn't even realise that I know such words) and half in english with random words in german/french, which meanings I can't even tell now because I honestly forgot both languages
Is there a word for when you write and then randomly decide to check one word's meaning despite knowing it perfectly? And then you turn out right and you just.. "ah silly me, next time I'll just trust myself", but next time you do the exact same. I really need that one in my vocabulary, pls tell me
December 18, 2024 at 11:44 PM
Is there a word for when you write and then randomly decide to check one word's meaning despite knowing it perfectly? And then you turn out right and you just.. "ah silly me, next time I'll just trust myself", but next time you do the exact same. I really need that one in my vocabulary, pls tell me
Ah how I love when people tell me to love my country simply cause I was born here. How do I tell them that this very country openly hates me without outing myself as a "child of Satan"? (Btw thanks grandma but I'm your son's child, not Satan's)
December 12, 2024 at 4:43 PM
Ah how I love when people tell me to love my country simply cause I was born here. How do I tell them that this very country openly hates me without outing myself as a "child of Satan"? (Btw thanks grandma but I'm your son's child, not Satan's)
I hate languages sometimes. Like, how do you say "my female friend" in english without this confusing word "girlfriend", which is also used for romantic relationship? Or how do you say "girlfriend" in russian, without needing to clarify if it's some random young lady or your actual girlfriend?
December 9, 2024 at 10:45 PM
I hate languages sometimes. Like, how do you say "my female friend" in english without this confusing word "girlfriend", which is also used for romantic relationship? Or how do you say "girlfriend" in russian, without needing to clarify if it's some random young lady or your actual girlfriend?
It's already 9th of December and I didn't draw ANYTHING yet
I still need ATLEAST a themed pfp for my main... And a gift for a friend... Or maybe two friends... Help me pls
I still need ATLEAST a themed pfp for my main... And a gift for a friend... Or maybe two friends... Help me pls
December 9, 2024 at 5:34 PM
It's already 9th of December and I didn't draw ANYTHING yet
I still need ATLEAST a themed pfp for my main... And a gift for a friend... Or maybe two friends... Help me pls
I still need ATLEAST a themed pfp for my main... And a gift for a friend... Or maybe two friends... Help me pls
I love how different my and my dad's music taste is
Mine is like indie-pop, alternative pop-rock, pop-rock 💗🌺🎀 (I'm melomaniac tbh)
And his is power metal, speed metal & symphonic metal 💪🏻💀🎻 (don't get me wrong, I also like metal)
And we STILL have many songs that we both like & listen to together
Mine is like indie-pop, alternative pop-rock, pop-rock 💗🌺🎀 (I'm melomaniac tbh)
And his is power metal, speed metal & symphonic metal 💪🏻💀🎻 (don't get me wrong, I also like metal)
And we STILL have many songs that we both like & listen to together
December 2, 2024 at 5:47 PM
I love how different my and my dad's music taste is
Mine is like indie-pop, alternative pop-rock, pop-rock 💗🌺🎀 (I'm melomaniac tbh)
And his is power metal, speed metal & symphonic metal 💪🏻💀🎻 (don't get me wrong, I also like metal)
And we STILL have many songs that we both like & listen to together
Mine is like indie-pop, alternative pop-rock, pop-rock 💗🌺🎀 (I'm melomaniac tbh)
And his is power metal, speed metal & symphonic metal 💪🏻💀🎻 (don't get me wrong, I also like metal)
And we STILL have many songs that we both like & listen to together
Y-x music "Results of the year" just came and.. I'm not surprised with mine. I've spent 78028 minutes listening to music on this app (I tried switching to two different apps, but it's not like I have a choice here). My favourite genre is indie-pop, apparently
But yes, Y-x, I love "Дайте Танк (!)"
But yes, Y-x, I love "Дайте Танк (!)"
December 2, 2024 at 11:42 AM
Y-x music "Results of the year" just came and.. I'm not surprised with mine. I've spent 78028 minutes listening to music on this app (I tried switching to two different apps, but it's not like I have a choice here). My favourite genre is indie-pop, apparently
But yes, Y-x, I love "Дайте Танк (!)"
But yes, Y-x, I love "Дайте Танк (!)"
Thanks to jschlatt I have Christmas (more like New Year, since we don't really celebrate Christmas here) vibes, I'm just worried they'll end before the actual holiday... Gotta hurry with some art work 🏃🏻♂️
Also I'm ashamed of my singing voice now lol (and some other things but that's not related)
Also I'm ashamed of my singing voice now lol (and some other things but that's not related)
December 1, 2024 at 11:03 PM
Thanks to jschlatt I have Christmas (more like New Year, since we don't really celebrate Christmas here) vibes, I'm just worried they'll end before the actual holiday... Gotta hurry with some art work 🏃🏻♂️
Also I'm ashamed of my singing voice now lol (and some other things but that's not related)
Also I'm ashamed of my singing voice now lol (and some other things but that's not related)
It's almost 3 a.m. and it's time to rewrite half of the magic system that took me about 7 years to fully develop! Yay!
November 25, 2024 at 11:48 PM
It's almost 3 a.m. and it's time to rewrite half of the magic system that took me about 7 years to fully develop! Yay!
I'm disturbed by comments under videos with handsome men. Those that are like "ugh fine" and some weird emoji combination, etc. Like.. why did you have to write that??
Look, I love seeng pretty people too. I definitely get those thoughts sometimes. I just.. leave them to myself yk??
Look, I love seeng pretty people too. I definitely get those thoughts sometimes. I just.. leave them to myself yk??
November 22, 2024 at 4:38 PM
I'm disturbed by comments under videos with handsome men. Those that are like "ugh fine" and some weird emoji combination, etc. Like.. why did you have to write that??
Look, I love seeng pretty people too. I definitely get those thoughts sometimes. I just.. leave them to myself yk??
Look, I love seeng pretty people too. I definitely get those thoughts sometimes. I just.. leave them to myself yk??
Slowly replacing my childhood photos on the walls with my art
+I feel less dysphoric when I can't see myself
-I hate my work more than I used to because I see it more often now and I know it's "not good enough" for me
+I feel less dysphoric when I can't see myself
-I hate my work more than I used to because I see it more often now and I know it's "not good enough" for me
November 19, 2024 at 11:19 PM
Slowly replacing my childhood photos on the walls with my art
+I feel less dysphoric when I can't see myself
-I hate my work more than I used to because I see it more often now and I know it's "not good enough" for me
+I feel less dysphoric when I can't see myself
-I hate my work more than I used to because I see it more often now and I know it's "not good enough" for me
Dad sent me a short film a few weeks ago and I only watched it now. Found it relatable until the very end when they revealed that MC has depression. Am I screwed?
I have no money or intent to go to a specialist btw, so I guess my mental health will remain a mystery forever
I have no money or intent to go to a specialist btw, so I guess my mental health will remain a mystery forever
November 18, 2024 at 12:05 AM
Dad sent me a short film a few weeks ago and I only watched it now. Found it relatable until the very end when they revealed that MC has depression. Am I screwed?
I have no money or intent to go to a specialist btw, so I guess my mental health will remain a mystery forever
I have no money or intent to go to a specialist btw, so I guess my mental health will remain a mystery forever
Funny haha trans awareness week moment
I'm referring to myself as a male in front of my dad for over a year now. I told him about my new name, and he knows how uncomfortable I'm with my sex
Today he said "well I know that you're a girl, so your voice sounds girlish to me"
I'm referring to myself as a male in front of my dad for over a year now. I told him about my new name, and he knows how uncomfortable I'm with my sex
Today he said "well I know that you're a girl, so your voice sounds girlish to me"
November 15, 2024 at 10:16 PM
Funny haha trans awareness week moment
I'm referring to myself as a male in front of my dad for over a year now. I told him about my new name, and he knows how uncomfortable I'm with my sex
Today he said "well I know that you're a girl, so your voice sounds girlish to me"
I'm referring to myself as a male in front of my dad for over a year now. I told him about my new name, and he knows how uncomfortable I'm with my sex
Today he said "well I know that you're a girl, so your voice sounds girlish to me"
Switching music app feels like going from a partner that just gaslights you occasionally and would be the first to tell all your secrets to government when they get bored of you, to someone who regularly kicks you out of your apartment AND keeps your stuff but all you need to get back is say "sorry"
November 14, 2024 at 11:54 PM
Switching music app feels like going from a partner that just gaslights you occasionally and would be the first to tell all your secrets to government when they get bored of you, to someone who regularly kicks you out of your apartment AND keeps your stuff but all you need to get back is say "sorry"
I'm a man of many hobbies. I love drawing, writing, even singing and many more. Yet I can't find my place in this world. Everything feels so.. meaningless. I already wasted half of the time I had to find myself. And I don't even know in which direction I should look.
November 11, 2024 at 11:33 PM
I'm a man of many hobbies. I love drawing, writing, even singing and many more. Yet I can't find my place in this world. Everything feels so.. meaningless. I already wasted half of the time I had to find myself. And I don't even know in which direction I should look.
God I just recalled the most random event of my life. So I was on this english competition in Moscow on 27th of February and I met a cute enby there (in the school's gym) and we talked for a while and he gave me his twitter username and I completely forgot about him the moment I left the building
November 9, 2024 at 12:15 AM
God I just recalled the most random event of my life. So I was on this english competition in Moscow on 27th of February and I met a cute enby there (in the school's gym) and we talked for a while and he gave me his twitter username and I completely forgot about him the moment I left the building
I guess sleep isn't an option. I had a dream about politics on one of my lore's planets.. looks like I'll have to keep watching the election from my phone (sounds like a good opportunity to finish some old drafts..)
Another funny haha #writing moment btw
Another funny haha #writing moment btw
November 6, 2024 at 1:58 AM
I guess sleep isn't an option. I had a dream about politics on one of my lore's planets.. looks like I'll have to keep watching the election from my phone (sounds like a good opportunity to finish some old drafts..)
Another funny haha #writing moment btw
Another funny haha #writing moment btw
Feels strange watching the election as a person from a country where the president didn't change my entire life
Like wdym no one knows who will win?? Wdym there will be no 87% votes for one candidate?
I'm jealous actually..
Like wdym no one knows who will win?? Wdym there will be no 87% votes for one candidate?
I'm jealous actually..
November 5, 2024 at 11:17 PM
Feels strange watching the election as a person from a country where the president didn't change my entire life
Like wdym no one knows who will win?? Wdym there will be no 87% votes for one candidate?
I'm jealous actually..
Like wdym no one knows who will win?? Wdym there will be no 87% votes for one candidate?
I'm jealous actually..
It actually makes me visibly shine from pure happiness & joy whenever someone cool likes my art posts
I am never more happy than when someone skilled or just confident enough to post their works (not in a bad way, but I lack this confidence sometimes) acknowledges me, even if it's only a like 😩💗
I am never more happy than when someone skilled or just confident enough to post their works (not in a bad way, but I lack this confidence sometimes) acknowledges me, even if it's only a like 😩💗
November 4, 2024 at 10:50 PM
It actually makes me visibly shine from pure happiness & joy whenever someone cool likes my art posts
I am never more happy than when someone skilled or just confident enough to post their works (not in a bad way, but I lack this confidence sometimes) acknowledges me, even if it's only a like 😩💗
I am never more happy than when someone skilled or just confident enough to post their works (not in a bad way, but I lack this confidence sometimes) acknowledges me, even if it's only a like 😩💗
Being the quiet kid™ actually kinda hurts when you hear all these stories from people that were constantly up to various shenanigans when they were in school, while the wildest thing I've ever done is ignoring my homework completely for 2 years, leaving my exams asap and still getting a 5/5
November 2, 2024 at 11:59 PM
Being the quiet kid™ actually kinda hurts when you hear all these stories from people that were constantly up to various shenanigans when they were in school, while the wildest thing I've ever done is ignoring my homework completely for 2 years, leaving my exams asap and still getting a 5/5
I just woke up in the middle of the night because I had a dream about something I already wrote and the dream couldn't progress further because I forgot what word I used when describing one of my ocs phone
Funny haha #writing moment. Turns out I didn't describe it at all and just said "phone".
Funny haha #writing moment. Turns out I didn't describe it at all and just said "phone".
November 1, 2024 at 11:46 PM
I just woke up in the middle of the night because I had a dream about something I already wrote and the dream couldn't progress further because I forgot what word I used when describing one of my ocs phone
Funny haha #writing moment. Turns out I didn't describe it at all and just said "phone".
Funny haha #writing moment. Turns out I didn't describe it at all and just said "phone".
I love having eternal sunset outside my window. Even if it's just lights of the nearest no-sleep big city.
November 1, 2024 at 12:25 AM
I love having eternal sunset outside my window. Even if it's just lights of the nearest no-sleep big city.
It's 1:42 am, November 1st. Why am I already thinking of my #ocs celebrating New Year?.. I mean, the ones I'm thinking about wouldn't even care about New Year. Looks like I'll have to distract myself with making a post about all the changes my oldest ocs had in those 12 years I had them..
October 31, 2024 at 10:42 PM
It's 1:42 am, November 1st. Why am I already thinking of my #ocs celebrating New Year?.. I mean, the ones I'm thinking about wouldn't even care about New Year. Looks like I'll have to distract myself with making a post about all the changes my oldest ocs had in those 12 years I had them..
It feels weird to live sometimes. I always questioned the purpose of living (well, atleast since I was like 5 years old), and to this day I don't know the answer. I guess I'm living to create my own purpose, to leave something behind, to make people remember me even after I'm gone.. but I'm not sure
October 25, 2024 at 11:54 PM
It feels weird to live sometimes. I always questioned the purpose of living (well, atleast since I was like 5 years old), and to this day I don't know the answer. I guess I'm living to create my own purpose, to leave something behind, to make people remember me even after I'm gone.. but I'm not sure
Anyone else getting the saddest ideas while being the happiest person alive? Maybe I'm too sensitive to that kind of stuff but usually just one song is enough for me to write down the most angsty idea when I'm living my best life lol
#writing
#writing
October 24, 2024 at 11:24 AM
Anyone else getting the saddest ideas while being the happiest person alive? Maybe I'm too sensitive to that kind of stuff but usually just one song is enough for me to write down the most angsty idea when I'm living my best life lol
#writing
#writing